Blood Triangle

It's the same case everyday...a place that produces an endless amount of deaths.
Did compassion disappear from this land?

I won't see it anymore. I won't hear of the crashing reality.
Don't calculate everything by its worth...people are an important existence.

Tears of blood are falling again because of our dulled hearts.
What will motivate me now?
Like the things that once filled our worlds with beauty,
the dreams we had for the future died.

No one can take it.
There are no tears to shed.
I can't take the pain that is penetrating deeply through my bones.

You've got the Power! You have the power to make things right.
Don't waste, and light the talks that concern humanity.

I don't know, why hate this moment.
People are not saying it's boring...Why do you tell me Lies?

Tears of blood are falling again because of our dulled hearts.
What will motivate me now?
Like the things that once filled our worlds with beauty,
the dreams we had for the future died.

Look at the eyes of the ones you love.
Don't you see their happiness?
Tell them that this world is full of valuable things.

What do I do? I am standing silently in front of the things that people have thrown away. This is not right.
What do I do? I'm diseased...I can't bear to just stand still and watch this happen.

Someday, one day.
next to the problems that you have thrown away, you were left behind and I was left behind.
Don't observe other people's pains with joy! It will become a boomerang.
One Flow, we want the flow, we got the flow we want the flow.
I got the flow, Show, Now I'm growling on earth
What do you want to show us? Is it so funny? I say no!

We don't want it anymore...
I believe that you can change it,
even in the darkness, all the way to the end of the sword

No one can take it.
There are no tears to shed.
I can't take the pain that is penetrating deeply through my bones.

Show us the pain of your broken hearts
So that I can help you...show me the road.
Like the things that fill this world with beauty
we have to make it so that we will treasure this place.

Purple Line

Now I see this way
It looks like purple line
Gotta introduce myself

I can’t even feel this world,
seized by these suspicions
There are times I cannot even take a step forwards
Really wanna get in touch with myself,
even though I wish for a miracle
Without a strong heart, I can’t move forward
Right now!

Purple line, let me set up my world!
No one else has ever walked this way
Embrace your dreams and keep searching for the way to live
My progression to be “me”
With your strong feelings in hand, show that you can seize victory
A purple line of passion

When challenges assail me,
my heart becomes completely out of my control
But I won’t run away if this is what it takes to grow
As I say this to myself,
I’ll overcome it all, right now!

Purple line, let me set up my world!
No one else has ever walked this way
Embrace hope, keep gazing toward the future
Into my progression, I’ll put my wishes
I’ll never give up
A purple line of truth

As we engrave this moment on our hearts
Let’s paint time like a movie
To find a “now” that’s worth more than the yesterdays,
Imagine an evolving premonition… oh-oh

Yo! Check it!
This way of thinking, like all is lost
You must be loving your way
Because we must move forward
Let me, with my strength help you
Such as things that you do
Keep on working like that
Only your goal will decide
Then we’ll hurl into our past
And show you what’s between

The world’s contrasts:
black and white, light and darkness, like south and north
Good and evil are smiling, beckoning me
In order to follow the path I believe
My soul will keep shouting out
We gotta purple like that. My time is still going on...

Heartbreak Hotel

I'm probably the stupidest person alive.
I let the same guy break my heart three times.
We'd talked and been friendly for three years now, and he shot me down three times: once, when I told him that I liked him during Freshman year, once again when I asked him to homecoming Sophomore year, and again this year on the day after Christmas.
You know how sometimes you think you've found the person who fits you perfectly, who you accept as they are and seems to understand you? I had that, and it turned out that he liked my mind, but not my body.
He: I'm not sexually attracted to you. I can never picture us together.
Me: Wait, you like my personality, but not my physical looks?
I hate men.
I really have given up on the possibility of a working high school relationship anywhere in my near future. I should probably get my head out of the clouds and put more focus into my studies.
I really wish I had more to talk about, but this is the most pressing matter on my mind. My resolution for the new year is to stop worrying about boys and find other outlets. I need to assert my status as a strong, independent woman who does not need a boyfriend to make her complete.
Happy new year.

How Could I Let Myself Fall For You?

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed
I still thought you were right here
But you've already chosen a different path

Why couldn't I call out to you at all?
Every day and night growing emotions
And words overflow
But I realized that
They'd never reach you again

Since that day I first met you
I felt like I already knew you
You and I melded into each other so smoothly

It was natural for me to be where you were
The two of us grew together
But you have already chosen a different path

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed
I still thought you were right here
Now we can't turn back

You said we weren't meant to be
You turned away and ran from me
As I saw you leave me behind
I could not help but ask myself "why?"

You did not want me by your side
Standing through all that would come
How could I let you pass me by?
Why could I not let go?

Why did I end up falling for you?
How we were before
We cannot return to it anymore
I've thought it through, thought it through

Why didn't I hold on to your hand?
No matter how much time has passed
You should have always been by my side
My feelings have never changed
I still love you

But still, even if I'm nowhere near you anymore
I am praying that you shall never be sad
May you be happy for eternity
No matter how much that would make me lonely
No matter how lonely...

A Tearful Star (Inspired by Arashi's "Namida no Nagareboshi")

Look at the sky, you can see a star
It's just simply there, beautifully shining

Listen to the stars, can you hear them?
They're just simply there, softly twinkling

I wish upon a shooting star that you will wipe your tears
I just want you to be here, smiling gently

Look at the sky, the day breaks
Right here, right now, a new day is beginning

I want to protect that smile of yours, which is bathed in the sun's light
Right here, right now, I want to hold hands and keep on walking

Let me walk with you, so beautiful and radiant.
Put your warm hand in mine.

I wish upon a shooting star that you will wipe your tears
I just want you to be here, smiling gently

Look at the sky, the day breaks
Right here, right now, a new day is beginning

Now when you gaze into the sky, you can see that star
In it's place, never wanting to stop beautifully shining

Look at the sky, the day breaks
Right here, right now, a new day is beginning

A new day I can face
When we walk together.

You're My Melody

When I close my eyes,
I hear the quiet sounds which are audible.
Your feelings, your small thoughts.

I’m sorry that I couldn’t hear you over to the unnecessary sounds of my heart.
The times of tears is now history, so don’t worry,
Because...

You’re my melody, I’ll carry you on and on.
You’re my song, my life’s soundtrack.
I love you, for you brighten up my life’s stage.
I’ll continue to sing you, you’re my song.

The times when my pride didn’t want to say "I’m sorry,"
My heart was extremely poor.
Will you come to me when my spirit is drying up?
When I’m about to break down?
Even the saddest times have an end just like a song,
Because...

It’s your love, your overflowing love, how you showed me love.
You’re my rhythm, my life’s present.
Please become the beautiful dream of my life timelessly.
I’ll continue to sing you, you’re my song.

The numerous sad love songs,
Although they seem to be about us,
You’re the most special person right now by my side.
When you close your eyes, the sounds you hear, your heart,
I’ll sing them now.

You’re my melody, I’ll carry you on and on.
You’re my song, my life’s soundtrack.
I love you, for you brighten up my life’s stage.
I’ll continue to sing you, you’re my song.

It’s your love, your overflowing love, how you showed me love.
You’re my rhythm, my life’s present.
Please become the beautiful dream of my life timelessly.
I’ll continue to sing you, you’re my song.

It’s your love, your overflowing love, how you showed me love,
You’re my rhythm, my life’s present,
Please become the beautiful dream of my life timelessly,
I’ll continue to sing you, you’re my song...

The Sinful Sun

It's the sinful sun!

Just for a second, won't you show me?
I'm falling down from your sexy pheromones.

Ah, it looks like I'm going to touch you,
but I can't!
Little by little, my pulse gets faster,
I can't be stopped!

Memories of the words that we exchanged are far off,
trembling with the movement of my mouth.
I stroked your wet hair, and ah~

Not continuing on from ABC, you can't do that.
But aren't things different inside of your heart?
My youth, there's no such thing.
I want to finish it off passionately,
inside of me.
I definitely don't want to be without you,
I'm the sinful sun, na na~

A "red thread" is a pipe dream,
but I want to believe in my motives.
I'm right, you're right too; but anyway,
I won't be controlled anymore.

Deceiving and being deceived,
my heart aches.
A terrible drama brings the night to a climax,
Our breaths meet each other's ears, ah~

Not continuing on from ABC, you can't do that.
But aren't things different inside of your heart?
My youth, there's no such thing.
I want to finish it off passionately,
inside of me.
I definitely don't want to be without you,
I'm thesinful sun, na na~

Memories of the words that we exchanged are far off,
trembling with the movement of my mouth.
I stroked your wet hair, and ah~

Not continuing on from ABC, you can't do that.
But aren't things different inside of your heart?
My youth, there's no such thing.
I want to finish it off passionately,
inside of me.
I definitely don't want to be without you,
I'm the sinful sun.
Our threads are entangled,
a red thread binds you and I together.
Na na~

Picture of You

After the after glow sets,
I’m going towards you,
Following the lights which turn on one by one.

I’ll embrace you,
Before the cold wind makes your shoulders flinch.

I love you,
The foolish you,
You’re so precious to me.

As much as the sun that rises above you,
I’ll keep you safe as much as you’ve waited for me, with this glaring heart,
All the dreams I’ve prayed for,
They’re going towards you with my sincere scent.

I hope that my wishes of smiling next to you every new morning,
Will be able to come true.

I’ll wait for you,
I’ll never let go of your hands.
Even if it’s only tears,
I’ll wipe them away for you.

Although we are not able to see the end,
No matter how bumpy our road is,
I’ll promise you, please be mine.

As much as the sun that rises above you,
I’ll keep you safe as much as you’ve waited for me, with this glaring heart,
All the dreams I’ve prayed for,
They’re going towards you with my sincere scent,
More than the air I breathe.

‘I love you’ ‘You’re the only one’,
I want to yell those words out into the sky.
I love you, my heart feels like bursting,
And my soul calls out to you.

No matter how many times they find us,
No matter if we can’t breathe,

Like those invisible flower-like smiles,
Which shine just like the stars,
I’ll keep your beauty safe.

As much as the sun that rises above you,
I’ll keep you safe as much as you’ve waited for me, with this glaring heart,
I love you, I love you,
You’re the most beautiful in this world,
This dream-like heart,
More than the air I breathe.

Love in the Ice

Your small, cold hands and trembling lips.
Able to carry on as if nothing has happened.

Are you afraid of remembering someone?
Struggling to swallow the words bubbling up to your lips.

Your back view resembles falling white snow.
Melting bit by bit.

Just like the star that doesn’t leave the dark night sky,
We’ll carry this dream forever together with love and trust.
If I were that person,
Once again,
I’d hug your hardened heart tightly in my arms forever.

Against the wall of reality,
Even the coldest of hearts,
At the end of the flowing tears.

The fuzzy stream of light,
Shines brightly in the darkness,
Passing through that time.

Able to feel each other’s body heat,
Our hearts stop and breath ceases.

Everyone has scars and heavy sighs,
I’m trying to find that space in time when I can draw you into my arms.

I can’t believe how just whispering to you make me so nervous,
'Till we can be together in my world.

Alone in the end of time, my heart,
Don’t be afraid because you were left alone.
Till the end of time, I’ll let you know my love.
I’ll protect you, you know.
Because I love you, I’ll let you know my love.

Just like the star that doesn’t leave the dark sky,
We’ll carry this dream forever together with love and trust.
If I were that person,
Once again,
I’d hug your hardened heart tightly in my arms forever.

Mirotic

From the start, you were sweet and simply attracted to me.
You’d stay always like that, you said when you first walked up to me.
All the possibilities opened up... Oh~

What is love? What! Right now it is Red Ocean.
I’m breaking my rules again. You know it’s getting boring?
You do get hurt a little bit, it’s all right... Oh~

You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You can’t break out, I got you...~ Under my skin
You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You are my slave, I got you...~ Under my skin

It nests in your head, the sharp stare.
It’s not me, my unmoving Chrome heart.
This is your choice... Oh~

Fragments of my crystal flowing through your veins, running through you.
Finally, the end of my transformation.
This must be love... Oh~

You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You can’t break out, I got you...~ Under my skin
You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You are my slave, I got you...~ Under my skin

With a single kiss~ the day revitalizing~ a powerful pull.
The second kiss, it sent a blow to your heart burned your skin.
Yeah~ I have you! You know you got it!
Yeah~ Come on! Come on! I got you- Under my skin

In your dreams you fall into my magic spell.
You want to see me again, I got you~Under my skin

My devil's ride, you now don’t have a place to breathe.
Let’s have fun, now that I have you~ Under my skin

You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You can’t break out, I got you~ Under my skin

You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You are my slave, I got you~ Under my skin

Hey, Don't Bring Me Down!

Hey!

Saying you’re going to leave me,
saying it’s over, you’re always trying to make me waver.
I know that you’re just fretful,
and it doesn’t change the way I think about you.
Call up! Call up!

Stop trying to test me,
I get tired seeing you like that.
Call up! Call up!

Why do guys always want confirmation?
Does a girl’s heart waver so easily?
If everything was predestined,
wouldn’t life be too boring?
It’s pretty dull having to express my feelings in the same way everyday.

Hey, don’t bring me down!
Don’t turn me into such a woman!
If I were a woman that knew the way to love,
I would choose never to stop loving you.

Hey, don’t bring me down!
Don’t look at me as if I’m like a migratory bird!
Let’s see who’s going to protect your love in the end.
Give it away, Give it away, Give it away now.
Give it away, Give it away, Give it away now.

Saying "don’t be so distracted,"
saying that "our love has gone cold."
Why don’t you realize how precious I am?

You seem to lack confidence,
I hear words that don’t suit you.
You really don’t know?
You don’t know I’m loving you.

Don’t you realize that from head to toe,
Everything about you captivates me.
I definitely do not want to be your boring slave,
Just like an oriole, a lifeless nightingale.
It’s pretty dull having to express my feelings in the same way everyday.

Hey, don’t bring me down!
Don’t turn me into such a woman!
If I were a woman that knew the way to love,
I would choose never to stop loving you.

Hey, don’t bring me down!
Don’t look at me as if I’m like a migratory bird!
Let’s see who’s going to protect your love in the end.

Stop trying to make me waver again!
Just let me protect you.
I need you boy, I you need boy, I need you boy,
Stop making me seem like a worthless girl
just to meet people’s expectations!
I need you boy, I need you boy, I need you boy.

Hey, don’t bring me down!
Don’t turn me into such a woman!
If I were a woman that knew the way to love,
I would choose never to stop loving you.

Hey, don’t bring me down!
Don’t look at me as if I’m like a migratory bird!
Let’s see who’s going to protect your love in the end.
I need you boy.
I need you boy.

Welcome Home

Welcome home, sweet home,

a place to go home, yeah.
Thanks for your love...

Pretending to be alright again,
to paint out the color of sadness.
I just laugh it off.

The importance of believing,
even if i understand it
Well, there are times when I still doubt.

Times when my empty body,
just flows by.
It makes me want to just lie down, yet
I just want to hold you.
These feelings pierce through me, so I can move on.

Welcome home, I'm home,
With these two simple words, my heart is satisfied.
Welcome home, sweet home,
a place to go home, yeah.
Thanks for your love...

I used to believe that adults merely think,
only of their cunning selves.
But there are people desperately trying to go back,
even screaming out loud.
Now I have finally realized that...

There is no such thing as
one natural happiness in this world.
For your sake I was able to realize this,
by carrying this feelings I can move on.

Welcome home, sweet home,
Accelerating the speed of everyday...
Welcome home, I'm home.
There will always be this unchanging and comforting scenery,
sweet home.

Search for the missing piece,
that painful wound in your heart.
The one thing that made me fight and go on,
was the “welcome home” waiting for me.

Welcome home, I'm home,
with one word my heart is satisfied.
Welcome home, sweet home,
a place to go home, yeah.
Thanks for your love...

Welcome back, I'm home,
it’s alright because you are here with me.
Welcome back, sweet home,
keep waiting, because I’m arriving soon.
sweet home...

Oh yeah!
Welcome back…sweet home...

Chasing Your Love

My heart beats so fast that it scares me
I breathe so hard that I can feel the air pressure
My palm sweats enough to water the flowers

My life has transformed into four different kinds of dramas
Joy and sorrow are all exaggerated
Can’t help but to lose myself

How can it be like this?
How can it be this crazy?
How can it be like this? This love has gone far beyond imagination

Even if the world goes against me, I will still be so much in love with you
So much in love with you, that we can’t be separated
I can only believe in this truth
Languish in jealousy, so much I can’t resist
So much in love with you
Can we be clear? At the end, I don’t feel like being clear, as it needs not be
This mischievous play

The words I wish to say to you
My body has responded for me
The moment I fall in love, I can no longer pretend
For once I feel like I am on top of the world

Doubts often comes by
But I’ve fallen in love already, and it has made me helpless
That I can be like this, can be like this crazy
That I can be like this, that I can be like this
That love has gone far beyond imagination

Even if the world goes against me, I will still be so much in love with you
So much in love with you, that we can’t be separated
I can only believe in this truth
Languish in jealousy, so much I can’t resist
So much in love with you
Can we be clear? At the end, I don’t feel like being clear, as it needs not be
This mischievous play

So much in love with you; that is a secret kept in my heart for so long
I dare not tell you, to the point that I have no courage to comfort myself
I ask the Lord: what I should do to get closer to you?
Since the beginning, my hands have moved forward, but I’m so afraid that it will scare you away
I am a brave fighter, with no enemies under the sky that can run free from me
But why is that the moment I step into this forbidden area, I immediately lose in your hands?

Even if the world goes against me, I will still be so much in love with you
So much in love with you, that we can’t be separated
I can only believe in this truth
Languish in jealousy, so much I can’t resist
So much in love with you
Can we be clear? At the end, I don’t feel like being clear, as it needs not be
This mischievous play

Endless Story

If you haven't changed your mind
I wish for you to be by my side tonight

I'm tired of pretending to be strong
I was young, every time I think about you baby
Now I can say I miss you
It's so hard to say I'm sorry

If this was for you and not anyone else
I wish to sing this song
Endless story, to this endless brilliance
Always I wish to tell you till the end of time

Memories of our time together
Don't erase it, leave it be, don't go away

Starting to melt from the warmth, I make sure
Drops of kindness spreads through my chest
It pains me so much, I'm missin' you
Don't let go of our held hands

If this can come true, once more for you
I want to sing this song
Endless story, with my endless love
Tell me why, please tell me till the end of time

If this was for you and not anyone else
I want to sing this song
Endless story, to this endless brilliance
Always I wish to tell you till the end of time

If this can come true, once more for you
I want to sing this song
Endless story, with my endless love
Tell me why, please tell me till the end of time

Yes We Can

It was a creed written into the founding documents that declared the destiny of a nation.

Yes we can.
It was whispered by slaves and abolitionists as they blazed a trail toward freedom.
Yes we can. Yes we can.
It was sung by immigrants as they struck out from distant shores
and pioneers who pushed westward against an unforgiving wilderness.
Yes we can. Yes we can.
It was the call of workers who organized;
women who reached for the ballots;
a President who chose the moon as our new frontier;
and a King who took us to the mountain-top and pointed the way to the Promised Land.
Yes we can to justice and equality.
(yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can…)

Yes we can to opportunity and prosperity.
Yes we can to opportunity and prosperity.
Yes we can heal this nation.
Yes we can repair this world.
Yes we can. Si Se Puede
(yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can…)

We know the battle ahead will be long,
but always remember that no matter what obstacles stand in our way,
nothing can stand in the way of the power of millions of voices calling for change.
We want change!
(We want change! We want change! We want change…)

We have been told we cannot do this by a chorus of cynics who will only grow louder and more dissonant.
We’ve been asked to pause for a reality check.
We’ve been warned against offering the people of this nation false hope.
But in the unlikely story that is America, there has never been anything false about hope. We want change!
(We want change! I want change! We want change! I want change…)

The hopes of the little girl who goes to a crumbling school in Dillon are the same as the dreams of the boy who learns on the streets of LA;
we will remember that there is something happening in America;
that we are not as divided as our politics suggests;
that we are one people;
we are one nation;
and together, we will begin the next great chapter in America’s story with three words that will ring from coast to coast;
from sea to shining sea - Yes. We. Can.
(yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can…)

OBAMA!

Sketch on the Heart

How many times have I knocked on closed doors?
The countless days I spent,
biting my lips and feeling disappointed.

However, I can definitely change.
I can make this obstacle into a chance!

I won't give up, no matter what,
I won't run away.
Since I want to try understanding,
these things that will occur from here on.
My heart will always be here,
just like this.
With hearts beating, let's sketch on!
Life is fine that way.

I make mistakes too,
I get hurt and bad things happen quite often.
but even if I'm in sorrow,
don't worry.
Time won't stop,
hence I will go on.

Amidst the tears and setbacks,
I can become strong someday.

I won't give up, no matter what,
I won't run away.
Even if the barriers that I have overcome continue on,
one by one.
Everyone is born with dreams,
we all carry our hopes in our hands.
Let's draw them just like in our imaginations,
Life is fine that way.

Looking down,
the color of the sky was forgotten.
Just raise your head and look,
and you will remember those words.
Whatever it is, you cannot know,
unless you try your all.
It's alright to change yourself,
just keep your heart.

I won't give up, no matter what,
I won't run away.
Since I want to try understanding,
these things that will occur from here on.
My heart will always be here,
just like this.
With hearts beating, let's sketch on!
Life is fine that way.

The Starry Sky

Ah...
Again, tonight, there's the fleeting starry sky
Ah...
The shining stars are hanging with wishes...

Although worries will always endure,
The door is opening.
Walking, falling,
you're the one that picks me up and gives me strength.
So that you can become a proud star,
I'll sing.
Now, I won't do less than my best,
I'll become stronger like...

Unswaying love, this important love,
No one else is so precious.
This night is surely uneasy, but,
We're the one that won't lose, but go on living...

Destiny is such a brutal thing,
Can't we follow our expectations?
It's scattering, falling, but this hand is here,
I'm carrying painful secrets for you while I sing.
Think of, believe, don't forget this wish.

Because who will surely hide weakness?
Aren't you definitely scared?
I'm sure I'll come to understand,
We're the one that won't lose, but go on living...
It was fleeting, and no more...
There is no need for sadness...

A Letter

Dear you,

Who’s reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

For me who’s 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can’t tell anyone

If it’s a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself

Now, it seems that I’m about to be defeated and cry
For someone who’s seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present

Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you

If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You’ll be able to see the answer

The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don’t be defeated and please don’t shed a tear
During these times when you’re seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I’m hurt
But I’m living the bittersweet present

There’s meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Seems like I’m about to be defeated and cry
For someone who’s seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?

Please don’t be defeated and please don’t shed a tear
During these times when you’re seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice

No matter era we’re in
There’s no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present

Dear you,
Who’s reading this letter
I wish you happiness

Step And Go

We're gonna step and go...
We're gonna step and go...

The passing seasons I walk along with my friends are piling up.
Glowing as if it's filled with light, our days are beating in my heart.
No matter what kind of future comes, no matter how far.
Our exchanging voices will not fade away.

We're gonna step and go to brand new story.
Going through the night, rolling, rolling on.
I'm gonna go there with my memories.
A world which completely escapes to eternity.

A precious wish overflowing with flashes of light.
The radiance in my hands will never fade away.
Collecting the gentle flashes of light, I'll make my time.
I will walk on forever.

Passing by the familiar scenery, it's somehow awkward.
The world starts revolving, the next stage has just begun.
How much should we extend our hands to reach our dreams?
Our thoughts are holding onto something unknown.

We're gonna step and go to brand new story.
We begun to run, we got connected.
The soaring wind escapes to eternity.

Now, we can stop our time with miracle.
Let's not forget this day forever.
Inside the continuing path towards tomorrow that starts from here.
Our memories will continue on blooming.

Step, step and step and go...
When the petals fall and dance.
Step, step and step and go...
The bud will eventually turn into a flower.
Step, step and step and go...
And that voice that's echoing right now.
Step, step and step and go...
The root is thick, deep, long and proud.

Amongst the passing days like this.
Yes, flashing brightly like fire.
Now, our paths have crossed.
We will go on to different directions.
The end of the days are sparkling,
because time colors them with light.
And I move towards the crossroad...
See you again someday, at this crossroad.

A night alone is probably freezing.
In the world where I was able to meet you.
Forever feel my soul!

A precious wish overflowing with flashes of light.
The radiance in my hands will never fade away.
Collecting the gentle flashes of light, I'll make my time.
I will walk on forever.

We're gonna step and go...
We're gonna step and go...

A Day In Our Life

Time turns the pages of the passing days, and you went somewhere especially far away
Ah, my feelings don't reach you anymore, you don't come here anymore,
however I won't forget all night

Yo, you shine greater than the rays of light from the sun!
Something so close I can't see it, yet as time passed I saw it

I love you, even til now, this endless love
Someday...you will...come back to me

The feeling of holding our hands together, the courage to pull you closer
The crumbling sounds only increases the rate of my heart
Right now it's love, love, just a little bit more, I'm almost a different me
It'll reach you~ I'll tell you~ I'll make it echo~

Ah, the painful thoughts pass us by
Ah, if it's now, I'll tell you it all
With your tears, your smile, everything
I always want that feeling
where I'm holding your hand and I'm by your side

I'm doing everything I can
in order to find myself
I'll find something new right?
Surely, someday, we'll meet again
Surely, someday, we'll meet again

The pain continues, when I think of you in the mornings. There's still an umbrella covering my heart
Ride on, let's get on board now! I don't need those peaceful days
Tick-tock Tick-tock the clocks ticks away. It's ok.
Don't worry about it, just leave it
I'm sure of this constant feeling, this never-ending love is already at it's limits

I love you, even til now, this endless love
Someday...you will...come back to me

I swear, one day you'll be by my side
I'll never give up, I won't falter from this
Now it's love, love, just a little bit more,
I'm almost a different me
It'll reach you~ I'll tell you~ I'll make this echo~ yeah!

Ah, the painful thoughts pass us by
Ah, if it's now, I'll tell you it all
With your tears, your smile, everything
I always want that feeling
where I'm holding your hand and I'm by your side

I'm doing everything I can
in order to find myself
I'll find something new right?
Surely, someday, we'll meet again
Surely, someday, we'll meet again

Ah, the painful thoughts pass us by
Ah, if it's now, I'll tell you it all
With your tears, your smile, everything
I always want that feeling
where I'm holding your hand and I'm by your side

I'm doing everything I can
in order to find myself
I'll find something new right?
Surely, someday, we'll meet again
Surely, someday, we'll meet again

With your tears, your smile, everything
I always want that feeling
where I'm holding your hand and I'm by your side

I'm doing everything I can
in order to find myself
I'll find something new right?
Surely, someday, we'll meet again

Homecoming = Coming Home? More Like CRAZINESS!

What's Playing In My Ear:"TABOO"-Koda Kumi

It's about time I posted a normal blog...life's just been INSANE!
Wow....What a week.
Homecoming on Saturday night followed by a Sunday bagel-day, and Rosh Hashanah on Tuesday and Wednesday, all followed by a crazy writing deadline. I'm still waiting for my head to stop spinning.
Seriously, people. I need a vacation.
Homecoming was amazing: I actually found something to wear, thanks to mum's habit of saving her old dresses. I had a black dress with gold straps that went well with my sheer cardigan and a string of black pearls finished off with a gigantic purple flower: trés Chanel! I went out to dinner with my galpals, and when we headed to the dance, the party was already in full swing. I saw all my friends, accidentally walked through the Gatorade river, and had an awesome time dancing the night away. I had a splitting migraine and my feet were killing me, so I MUST have had fun! We all went to my friend's house to spend the night, or more accurately, drink too much root beer, watch Grey's Anatomy and Ugly Betty, and eat goldfish until we passed out from sheer exhaustion. I awoke to the next morning to a headache and unaware of where I wasm kind of like a bad New Year's party. We ate Panera's bagels, had an adventure in the bargain section of Wal-Mart, and spent the day just being our insane selves.
Best.....Homecoming.....EVER.
Then, I had the wonderful opportunity to spend another Rosh Hashanah with my *wonderful* family. It truly is the time I spend during holidays with these people that make me really wish I was adopted. This holiday is essentially like having Thanksgiving four times over a course of two days accompanied by intervals of prayer in synagogue and walking back and forth between the two. The sucky part is that because it is not like Shabbat, I never hang with my homie Gz and end up spending waaaaaay too much time with la familia. You see, how do I explain my family? Every family dinner ends with some conversation regarding:
1) Some disguisting and unmentionable bodily function
2) Why America sucks
3) Grandma's sex life
Dear god, how do I share a gene pool with these people? Really?
Well, I had better get cracking on all of this makeup work. I have to come up with some idea of a podcast, and I need to find a way to make my partner's idea of an "OtakuCast" to work while managing to keep out of cosplay. The impossible? yes. Wish me luck.
I wish my homework was asexual so it could do itself.

Barefooted Future

I'm always forgetting, and fearing each day
running out of passion, my dreams have started to die
this world seems warped, torn to pieces and hazy
but it's nice to smile even for a second

Though times are tough, I can run past these days
as long as I feel that I'm not alone

I'm happy for no reason
this feeling is true, and it revives my tired heart
an outburst of passion for absolutely no reason!
saying, "go and build your future!"

In the corners of my awfully dry heart
there's no need to hide this feeling of wanting to cry
I won't let go, until the waves wash me ashore
it's good that my dark shadow is being washed away

I only turn my head in order to help someone
because that's what I believe in

Neither words, nor looks
my happy heart has but one desire, because I want to live free
my heart is beating fast for absolutely no reason!
saying, "go into your barefoot future"

I'm happy for no reason
this feeling is true, and it revives my tired heart
an outburst of passion for absolutely no reason!
saying, "go and build your future!"

Not words, not looks
I've always wanted to live free and have fun
my heart is beating fast for absolutely no reason!
saying, "go into your barefoot future"

Comet

Looking up to the night sky alone, I saw a comet
In an instant it burst open, and disappeared
When I think of you, my heart aches
I want to see you right now
But I can't fly

If I could turn into a comet
I would run through the sky and fly
No matter what tomorrow is like, these feelings are strong
So this comet will never break open

When I grumble about hating it when it rains
I even now remember what you would say
Stars will come out beautifully in the night sky, after the rain
When I think about that
I think that I can grow to love the rain too

If I could turn into a comet
I would she'd my overflowing light

Whenever I was sad, you would always look up to the night sky
And make it shine even more, so that I would smile

You're always alone, and fighting with something
But I can't be
At your side

If I could turn into a comet
I would run through the sky and fly
It will definitely reach you, in the light of this moment
Your moment shines, bringing the sky around
If I could turn into a comet
I would certainly be by your side, at any time

Telepathy

I don't know how many times this has happened
Us calling each other, exactly at the same time
When we meet, we choose the same thing on the menu
Is this destiny?

The truth is, I am more aware of this
If you felt it, you will know what I feel

You'll now even see me when you're sleeping
In your dreams you will meet me
The way we connect
Hey! Hey! I like it!
Sweeter than any candy
I like the sensation of the telepathy between us

I know because of a woman's intuitions
We will meet once again
Tell me that you want me
You keep coming to me

The truth is, it's actually me trying
I'm the one that shot all those cupid arrows

You'll now even see me when you're sleeping
In your dreams you will meet me
The way we connect
Hey! Hey! I like it!
Sweeter than any candy
I like the sensation of the telepathy between us

Where are you?
Do you miss me?
Even when you don't tell me

I get the feeling I know
Is it that you're the same as me
Tell me if this is love...

Even when you don't tell me, you're already mine!

You'll now even see me when you're sleeping
In your dreams you will meet me
The way we connect
Hey! Hey! I like it!
Sweeter than any candy
I like the sensation of the telepathy between us

Rainbow Kisses

It’s always like that
You throwing tantrums
You would hide away my most precious treasure
And because those places where you’d hide them
Would always be the same
Today I’ll wait for you there first

The seasons have brought along the evening sun
And the shadows have found me

With a shocked expression on your face
You stare intently at me
And suddenly turn away from me, seems like you’re pouting
When I say "I’m sorry"
You say “then come here, look at this"
"Our shadows have overlapped each other"

Because our umbrellas are colliding against each other
I’m unable to move forwards
And you laugh after seeing me like this
So I do it as well, like how you showed me
I pout the same way you pouted

You, who’s smiling so gently
All these while, all this time
You’ve been so precious that I could cry
You’re my most precious treasure

So you pout on purpose
And before I could respond to your “sorry"
You kissed me gently

From now on, it’s okay if you say slightly wilful things
But please say them only to me

“It’s too troublesome"
You’re not being frank with me
I wonder why you can’t just say it
“I like you"? it’s just these words

Sometimes I just want to hear you say it
Today is the day our names overlap each other
The day that our love starts to sprout

Lalalalalalalalala…

The rainbow is really pretty
No it’s you that’s prettier
To the you who’s starting to be shy

Thank you…
Thank you.

Back to School Blues

What's Playing In My Ear:"Niji (Nino Solo)"-Arashi

It's raining again. This weather makes me want to crawl under my covers and never come out again.
Well, now that I'm back into the swing of my school routine, things seem a bit more depressing around here. One of my friends is at school in Phillie, my other friends are back at JEWSKOOL, and I'm stuck on the bus with a bunch of annoying freshman.
Welcome to junior year.
My favorite classes are AP Micro Economics, Multimedia 2, and Spanish 3, but I think my chemistry teacher has a vendetta against students. The one thing I honestly like about my schedule is that I have media first=morning nap, and Spanish last=afternoon nap. It's perfect! :D
I am not sure what the problem is, but I have had a lot of trouble sleeping for the last few weeks, and it's really taking a toll on me. I cannot focus if I'm sleepy, but I get to bed on time every night and still fail to sleep. Insomnia? I hope not.
I finally finished "Eclipse," and I'm getting worried that my novel sounds eerily similar. I'd better take a different approach with my character development.
I really wish that I had more to say, but my life is pretty slow at the moment. So I'll just enjoy study for my math quiz and try to ignore the rain...
Where are my big fuzzy slippers?

Moonlight Justice

Moon Twilight.
If the noise of the moon dwelt in my heart...
Moonlight justice.
This pure white light...
...will reach our lives.
The world will collapse from
the devastating wind.
We will not give up
even if time has stopped.
Place the whistle of an
angel upon my finger.
I will send the living tomorrow.

Day and night.
Resonate with each other,
Day and night.
The people who aren't invited...
Hold over your head
your claw of anger.
Were you born
with only hatred?

Planet twilight.
If the noise of a planet resounds in my heart...
Within me,
Star knight justice.
This pure white light...
Believe in my courage.
...if it reaches our lives.
At any time,
yes, at any time.
My dream is within myself.

I'll give a shock!
Feel some justice!

Once Again

Once again we’ve now started moving towards the future
Start rowing, etch your feelings into your heart
You can get it if you reach out still
The dream you’d forgotten is there

Never being able to fly, we gazed up at the sky
Not being able to do anything, with no goals, we just kept searching back then

Just the time where we were lost passed
We went through sleepless nights
Surely the day will come where we’ll be able to arrive to the other side of the day we feared

Once again we’ve now started moving towards the future
Start rowing, etch your feelings into your heart
You can get it if you reach out still
The dream you’d forgotten is there

Not being able to see any things for certain, we questioned every night
Not being able to see anything around ourselves, we pushed through, madly running back then

So I wouldn’t forget, I engraved your voice which disappeared into the falling rain into my heart
Surely the day will come where I’ll reach you, along with the feelings welling up inside of me

Once again we’ve now started running to the future
The dream we drew surely matches our feelings
If you’re having regrets, don’t give up
The tomorrow we believed in is already there

We’d lost sight of
“the wish we made, the dream we drew” once again, we go to the future
Back then the anxiety we had
Is not going to be a waste, even if we keep waiting…
Instead of that, so we’ll fly higher, we have to lay low
So somehow we get another chance, now, once again
So again, again, again and again

Once again we’ve now started moving towards the future
Start rowing, etch your feelings into your heart
You can get it if you reach out still
The dream you’d forgotten is there

Stand Up!! We’ve now started running to the future
The dream we drew surely matches our feelings
If you’re having regrets, don’t give up
The tomorrow we believed in is already there

A World To Believe In

I've seen the tears and the heartache
And I've felt the pain
I've seen the hatred
And so many lives lost in vain

And yet through this darkness
There's always a light that shines through
And takes me back home
Takes me back home

No matter what exists
beyond that tall wall
I don't want to run away
I'll continue to walk onward
and won't forget

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
For the sake of love
I can become stronger
as long as you are here

When it looked like
my heart would overflow with tears
If I noticed, I was never alone
Even on the windy days
Even on the rainy days

And I see for one fleeting moment
A paradise under the sun
I drift away
And I make my way back to you
I won't forget

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
No matter how many times it takes
It can be redone
as long as there is a tomorrow

Every time people are hurt
the truth is that they'll be brought
closer to an important answer

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
For the sake of love
I can become stronger
as long as you are here

You gave me a world to believe in
You gave me a love to believe in
No matter how many times it takes
It can be redone
as long as there is a tomorrow

As long as you're here with me
As long as you're here with me

Let's keep on living

Keep The Faith

Before, you were speaking selfishly, but
Here, you know baby, there was a place you could belong
It's possible to be hurt even when you can say what you believe, so
quietly, you traveled in search of kindness
Now, you're crouching here, resting your tired wings

No, No, No! You show me the faith
I'll definitely keep it for you
Alone, we'll lose sight of tomorrow, so
We'll shout this out loud so keep the faith

With no enemies, and no impossibilities
We'll fly on in high gear, and fuel on the flames
We'll slip out of these boring days
It's a solid promise so keep the faith

In a town full of mistakes,
don't be afraid if something tries to change you,
what's in your heart can't be altered
Burdened by words that weren't said, and pain that won't fade,
the fake smile is firmly in place

No, No, No! You show me the faith
I'll definitely keep it for you
we'll keep a light shining for you,
so don't cry alone, Keep the faith

Even if my voice is far away, my heart is here in this place
We dream, and we fall down, but get right back up
We're going to bet it all on this so keep the faith

Everyone pretends that they don't see anything, and they hurt you
You can feel me nearby, can't you? I'll rescue you out from there

That's why, close to you...

"Sweetie."

No, No, No! You show me the faith
I'll definitely keep it for you
Alone, we'll lose sight of tomorrow, so
We'll shout this out loud so keep the faith

With no enemies, and no impossibilities
We'll fly on in high gear, and fuel on the flames
We'll slip out of these boring days
It's a solid promise so keep the faith

We dream, and we fall down, but get right back up
We're going to bet it all on this so keep the faith!

Happiness

Yeah, yeah, yeah....

Rather than grieving in the headwind,
if we imagine all will go well, someday times will change.

When we're engrossed in living and with trivial matters,
when we falter in painful love, we have to stand up again each time.

If we think of the comings and goings of memories, it is too lonely.
Because an exciting future is sure to be waiting over there for us.

Start running, start running, let's go and welcome tomorrow.
Let me hear your voice, I feel it all.
Don't stop, don't stop, these feelings move me now.
No matter how small the hope may be, it is just my one and only happiness.

Even the feelings of tears cannot be put into words,
because it's alright not to worry about certain things.
What color is the rainbow of happiness?

When we find the answer, we'll have accumulated more memories.
From here we can progress without fear to a new place.

'Till far away, 'till far away, the path leads on forever.
Let me hear you speak, I'll always stay beside you.
Don't stop, don't stop, I believe in these feelings.
The hope may not have a name yet, but it is just my one happiness.

Start running, start running, let's go and welcome tomorrow.
Let me hear your voice, I feel it all.
Don't stop, don't stop, these feelings move me now.
No matter how small the hope may be, it is just my one and only happiness.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, YEAH!

You're My Jewelry

The shine in your eyes,
is like a gem in the twinkling stars.
Staring into those eyes,
the whole world is enchanted.

What I am saying is "I love you,"
the meaning is the same.
Your flattering words put me in a trance,
why don't you kiss me?

Baby, come to me.
I love you, only you.
Hear me, only me.
You're my jewelry.

But even a jewel grows hazy,
your sweet charm does not.
Even a huge diamond,
is mere foil in comparison to you.

Tell me more and more,
continue your pleasant words.
Your whisperings make me feel like royalty,
Why don't you kiss me?

Baby, come to me.
I love you, only you.
Hear me, only me.
You're my jewelry.

You're my jewelry.

Summer Blues

How can this phone not be love at first sight?

What's Playing In My Ear:"Iris"-The Goo Goo Dolls

Summer flies by like water falling through my cupped hands. How I wish that I could save these moments forever. SUMMER, SLOW DOWN, DAMMIT!
I attended my first Sweet Sixteen party, and it turned out much more fun than I expected. I got a few looks from some guys, saw my friends, and found out that I have an inner hillbilly just itching to get out (I won the hoe-down contest). The only things that bugged me were:
A) I kept getting hit on by this one friend of mine
B) My hair went from straight to curly in just an hour of dancing
I also had my first slow-dance, but it was just with a friend. I don't like him or anything, it was kind of funny, actually.
My parents finally gave in and got me a new phone.....WITH TEXTING!!!!!! LG RUMOR, silver and green, camera, full keyboard, bluetooth, fun ringtones, and to top it off, I found a 1GB memory card for $9.95 to boot!
High phone bills, here I come.
I have actually been texting quite a bit, seeing as I strained a ligament in my foot this past weekend. I spent my last day with advil, ice, a footrest, and a marathon of "The Secret Life of the American Teenager."
Worst Acting EVER.
At least I had a chance to catch up on my writing. I'm almost done with chapter twelve, where a lot of drama takes place. This summer has really been good to my fans. :D
I'm not quite sure what's been bothering me lately, but I have been feeling a bit blue. Maybe it's because last week I was constantly with my friends, but now I've spent most of this week by myself. I guess I just got a bit lonely is all, I mean, when you're off your feet it's tough to socialize. I used the opportunity to clean my room and finish reading this really interesting book called "Nine Parts of Desire: The Hidden World of Muslim Women." Now I'm reading "Queste," the latest "Septimus Heap" series book.
Maybe I need to meditate or something similar to divert my bad energy. Or I could cook, and by "cook" I mean "attempt to prepare some kind of food and end up causing an explosion."
Yeah, let's stick to meditation or Tai Chi.
Well, I'm off to change my Ace bandage, don't wait up for me. I'll be here....alone....
Damn, I need crutches or something to get me out of the house.

One Love

There were times when we wanted to say something,
but could not.
And there were times when we wanted to be honest,
but could not.
We have overcome those tearful seasons,
and now we shine so bright.
The images of happiness we have painted overlap,
to become one great love.
Let's live together always.

Even a hundred years from now, I will swear my love.
You are everything to me.
Believing in you, just believing in you.
The one I will share both good and bad times with.

No matter what you are,
No matter what I am,
Every part of us is precious to me.
As long as I have you,
I need nothing more.
I know we will be happy.

I waited for you in the rain,
not even knowing the meaning of kindness.
A misunderstanding caused us pain that night,
But still,
We have made it this far.
One invaluable encounter set off a chain of miracles,
our memories build upon each other.
The song of a new beginning echoes.

To the friends who laughed, cried, and supported us,
no matter what happened,
I can only say one thing to you now.
From the bottom of my heart is: "thank you."

Even a hundred years from now, I will swear my love.
You are everything to me.
Believing in you, just believing in you.
Let's make a promise in the tomorrow we will share.

You are the one and only person I chose,
in this whole world.
As long as I have you,
whatever future I have,
any future with you will be a shining one.

Self-Discoveries, Hair Dye, and Creepy Batman Nerds

What's Playing In My Ear:"Kitto Daijobu"-Arashi

I spent my entire day filling in as a camp counselor for my sister's bunk.
Now I remember why I decided not to work there again.
I am exhausted and cannot feel my toes. It is not that I do not enjoy spending my time chasing after a bunch of screaming miscreants, I just thought that this summer would be devoted to ME, and ME alone. So much for that brilliant plan...
Although I did not dress up as The Joker after all, The Dark Knight was AWESOME. As well as it being an awesome movie, it was even better seeing it at midnight with all of the local Batman nerds and virtually every teen in the city. The only disturbing part was getting hit on by a guy through one of his girl-pals sitting behind us. The conversation went as follows:
Girl: Hey, how old are you?
Me: Um, excuse me?
Girl: Yeah, the guy behind me wants to know so he doesn't become a pedifile when he buys you a soda.
Me: X_x
Batman nerds are SCARY PEOPLE. PERIOD.
Besides for the fact that I was nearly scarred for life, I believe that without a doubt it is the best movie of the year. There were at least four points in the movie where I thought it was over, but some sudden twist turned up making everything even cooler! I did not like Rachel's character in this one though, I was actually happy when she died. Heath Ledger was by far the creepiest man I have ever seen act in a role like this. No wonder people think this role killed him. SO what have we learned?
Christian Bale=WIN
Batman nerds=creepy sex fiends
Midnight movie releases=worth every penny
I am super-psyched that all my friends will finally be home for a good portion of the summer holidays! This summer has been considerably lonely, but I have gotten some quality time alone, something I really needed after this school year.
Well, I am on chapter twelve of my novel, getting the real story underway. Exciting, I know. I just wish that I had more time and inspiration for my work. I get writer's block quite often these days.
I just found my new favorite drama: Bambino! Bambino! is about a young guy from Hakata named Ban Shogo who leaves everything behind, dropping out of college and breaking up with his fiancée in dreams of becoming a professional Italian chef in the Baccanale fine restaurant of Tokyo. Ban Shogo is played by the über-hottie from Arashi, Jun Matsumoto, which is how I found out about it in the first place. This drama envokes tears, laughter, and makes you really re-evaluate people's lives and dreams. I think you should get off your butt and head over to crunchyroll and watch it!
I have been thinking of some kind of drastic change to apply to myself. This year has really been about self-discovery for me, and I think that I am finally learning about myself and finding out what kind of person I want to become. I feel that I have really grown this year, and especially over this summer. I want to find some kind of way to reflect the changes and express how I feel about the future. I also really want to surprise everyone when school starts again. I thought of cutting my hair, but I do not really want to part with my hair. Maybe dye it? Perhaps I need some other drastic surprise... Any ideas?
Well, I need to go back to the piano. If I want to get any better, I have to put in the time. At this point, it is a rivalry between my older brother and myself, as it has been since I was born. HUZZAH!

Verano Nights and Summer Días

What's Playing In My Ear:"PEACH"-Ai Otsuka

Anthony Bourdain's new season of No Reservations is on. I have only one thought: hell yes! This season, Tony seems a lot more loose, serious, and less sarcastic because he visits a lot of countries that have suffered immensly through hard times, like Laos, Columbia, and Saudi Arabia. Looks like this summer is not turning out so bad after all.
I am still looking to get my hands on a copy of New Moon before my friend spoils the entire book for me. Gawd, why must I wait for 45 other people on a library waiting list? I WANT MY VAMPIRES AND I WANT THEM NOW!
Because of all the free time and newly-found inspiration, I am writing my novel on a faster scale than ever before. Chapter 11 has just reached the meat of its plot, and this part is essential to everything that comes after. At this rate, I will finish the book before you know it.
Life is good.
I added Michelle Kwan to my "Skating Wall of Fame" last night. For those of you who are unaware, I am an avid fan of speed skating and figure skating. My favorite skaters end up on the wall over my bed at some point, hence "Skating Wall of Fame." At the moment, I have a Daisuke Takahashi collage that I made on the computer, an autographed photo of Casey Fitz, a Time Magazine article on Joey Cheek, and book clippings of Michelle Kwan. Now I need something of Apollo Anton Ono to add, and all will be well.
I want to get the 2008-2009 Arashi calendar, but....
1) No tengo una tarjeta de credito (ain't got no credit card)
2) No tengo dinero (ain't got no money) T_T
I need to get a job. FAST.
I will just have to settle for half-assed scans of the calendar that fellow rabid fangirls have distributed throughout the internet. Arashi goodness here I come!
I wish I could have traveled somewhere this summer. Everyone seems to have gone somewhere fun but me. Mum wants me to go on an NCSY service program to help children in Ukraine and Poland next summer, but I do not work well with kids, as last summer illustrated quite blatently. I do not even think that we will be able to go to Ocean City again, due to various reasons.
I will just have to settle for a bike ride to Cedarburg.
I have two friends right now who are currently not speaking to each other, and it just pisses me off. I hate getting caught in the middle of situations like these because I refuse to take sides, especially when both sides are acting just plain childish. KISS AND MAKE UP PEOPLE, IT IS NOT HARD!
I am still working on a costume to wear to the Batman opening on Thursday. Someone suggested I go as The Joker, which would be easy if I could find myself some face paint. Would I even look alright as a demonic clown? Heath Ledger did...
Clowns are creepy. 'Nuff said.
Time to go get scary.

A Storm's A Coming...

Xiu Yi!!!!! <3

What's Playing In My Ear:"Zen Me Ban"-S.H.E
Man, this is the cruddiest summer weather I have seen since that July blizzard in Colorado back in...wait, did Colorado ever have a blizzard in July? Scratch that. This is the worst summer weather I can ever remember.
It was extremely hot and humid this morning, and my mum called eight times from Chicago to remind me to water her plants. I dragged out of bed, feeling extremely tired and groggy from four hours of sleep, and proceeded to water ALL of the plants. Mind you, my mother is the biggest green thumb you will ever meet. Not twenty minutes after I water each and every freaking green flower and herb, it RAINS. All that work for NOTHING.
I hate my life.
Yeah, mum and her friend ditched me and went off for a fun time in Chicago leaving me to rot. I did not want to hang out with them or anything considering I age thirty five years for every ten minutes I spend with them, but it was a bit of an insult not to be invited. So I spent the entire day alone with no transportation because my bike's busted and I cannot exactly drive yet and no destination had I gotten a ride because Mequon sucks.
Mum was complaining: "Why didn't you go on an NCSY trip? I talked to Mrs.(insert mum's boring/cooking-obsessed friend's name here) and she says that her daughters are having a great time!" When I showed mum the pamphlet in January, when you SIGN UP, she said no to every program that they offered. Way to go mum.
This is the suckiest summer yet.
At least I got some more writing time in because of all the spare quiet time I get to myself nowadays. I am almost done with my first notebook (about 54 pages), which is a major milestone.
Maybe I will get some cooking done, I have been dying to try making onigiri again with my new and improved technique. This involves RINSING the rice so it does not become another rice-snowball incident. If not onigiri, I might just make some soups or something.
Gawd, I feel so domestic. Yuck.
ZOMG. The Taiwanese Hana-Kimi drama was totally awesome! I finally watched the whole series, and laughed my guts out! It got posted on YouTube, so I watched the whole thing from my iPod Touch. I enjoyed it so much, I stayed up until about 4 AM for the past few weeks just so I could squeeze in another episode. I hope that the legal issues regarding the filming of a second season get settled soon, because the end just kind of left ends hanging. Xiu Yi and Dao Xou were hysterical, I just couldn't get enough of them. And Quan.....@_@ Dreaaaaaamy.
Now that my girly rant is over, I'm off to paint unicorns and have a tea party in a frilly pink dress. Hopefully I'll remember to tack up the Arashi posters in my room. :3

Lazy Summer Days and Arashi

What's Playing in My Ear:"One Love"-Arashi
W00ts for a new summer layout! All the pale colors were making me feel sick. It's time for some new fresh colors and fonts! What do you think of the new design?
Geez, the summer is flying by fast... MAKE IT GO SLOWER!!!!
Well, my computer finally kicked the bucket. The hard drive failed, therefore I have lost everything that wasn't backed up. So that means that my music and photos are safe, but everything else is gone forever T_T
Why me?
Well, I took it as a chance to clean up my junk and start over fresh, and by that I mean....OVERLOADING MY REPAIRED HARD DRIVE WITH ARASHI! I'm talking much more than a few Mp3s...
about 66 songs, including limited release albums
12 music videos
50 avatars
20 wallpapers
over 100 magazine scans
and and entire piano book scan
Obsessed? Maybe. Happy? Definitely. :D
I'm still adjusting to life with my brother. It's weird to have an older brother living abroad for four years, and then he magically reappears. The idea is taking some getting used to, especially since he hogs the computer/TV, empties the fridge, and brings that teenage guy stink to my house. I swear, you could bottle that smell, sell it as insect repellent, and make a fortune!
Since school has let out, I've been working on that novel like never before. I've added two whole chapters and started typing an edited archive version for my portable drive. Since I'm not working or traveling at the moment, I get a lot of time to myself to work on the book. I just wished I'd spend more typing properly or practicing piano, but I'm so lazyyyyyyyy. :D
Speaking of which, Mum signed me up for summer lessons, so I'd better get some practicing in before Nathalie decides to hog the piano.

In Memorium of Miyuki Kanbe (1984-2008)

My dear sweet angel
now you sleep
You can be at peace
but this loss is deep

Youth is short
so it seems to be
And yours was cut
you left us breathlessly

And now you rest
you have left us here
Where you are now
there's no need for fear

Your talent inspired us
you made us laugh and cry
We will surely miss you
it's time to say goodbye

We will remember the happiness you brought
we will always see your smiling face
The joy, and laughter you radiated
You're in a better place

Your pain is gone
You wings can soar high
We will remember you always
You will never truly die

Vacation

Come on, come on come on
Let's go!
Come on, come on come on
Let's go!
Come on, come on come on
Let's go!
Come on, come on
Let's go!

Vacation
Need a little sun to break up all the frustration
And turn it into love
Ain't nobody gonna tell us what we gonna do because today it's up to you
Temptation comin' up to me
A little relaxation and I'll be great to be
Come on and weeky weeky loo
It's gonna start now
Kick it back, kick it back, kick it back to the track
Kick it back, kick it back, kick it back to the track

Vacation's where I wanna be
Party on the beach where the fun is free
We don't need a holiday, it's time to celebrate
'Cause I need a break, I need a vacation

Vibrations
Need to get me some and drive out all my complications
And turn them into love
Ain't nobody gonna tell us where we gonna be
Because today, today it's you and me

Vacation's what I wanna do
Party on the beach, fun for me and you
We don't need a holiday, it's time to celebrate
Repeat after me "I need a vacation."

Let's go!
Let's go!
Let's go!
Let's go!
I wanna be where the fun is free
So come with me

Vacation's where I wanna be
Party on the beach where the fun is free
We don't need a holiday, it's time to celebrate
'Cause I need a break, I need a vacation

Carmel Love Song

A slice of the red-dyed afternoon
Framed by the square window
It's growing dark, the day is ending
Tomorrow is the day you leave

Tenderness always brings loneliness with it
For the moment, let me close my eyes
Against the countless memories

You'll always be my treasure
It's funny how much I love you
If it means you'll smile someday
I'll wave goodbye from the bottom of my heart

From the veranda, I watched
The lights go on in the little street
A vapor trail drifts by
Is it because of my sigh?

If I put it in words, it'll probably bother you a bit
If I stand close and touch your hand, will you be able to feel it?
"Goodbye"

In our tightly held hands
The dream we believed in begins to move
I'll never forget you
The sweet evening sky begins to melt

You reach out your hand
Before the dusk
And try to catch the stars
Drawing nearer...
The truth is, I never want to let you go

You'll always be my treasure
It's funny how much I love you
If it means you'll smile someday
I'll wave goodbye from the bottom of my heart

And Believe in All

Like light turned toward a mirror
hate will soon splash back onto yourself
There is no loss or victory in terms of love
Gentleness should be seen as a strength,
not a weakness

So believe in love, let's try to believe
And believe in all, in this moment
because we're all living in the same era

So believe in love, let's try to love
And believe in all, everyone is allied
while looking up at the same starry sky

So believe in love, let's try to believe
And believe in all, in this moment
because we're all living in the same era

Anticipation

What's Playing in My Ear:"Orlean no Sei Senshi~Uranus to Neptune no Uragi"-SeraMyu
One more week, one more week. I ONLY HAVE TO SURVIVE MAKE IT FOR ONE MORE WEEK!
The last week is always the longest and more difficult portion of the school year for me. I'm just not a very patient person. I'm kind of worried about the fact that Shavuot falls on my first exam day, and I'm not too fond of rescheduling my exams. My teachers are nice enough, I'll find a way.
I still have not decided what to do this summer; I got offers to spend some time volunteering in Sweden/Italy, but my Aunt's relatives want me to go stay with them in Israel, and CGI still wants me to go be a camp counselor again. Decisions, decisions...
I took my siblings to go see "The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian" yesterday. It was a bit different from the book, and much darker than the previous film. Ben Barnes as Prince Caspian=yummy. Me likey. :D
I finally finished all of the books I've been reading for both pleasure and for school assignments, and now I have nothing to read. Any suggestions? I like all sorts of books, but mostly fantasy, romance, and historical fiction. Mum's been raving about this book involving Tsar Nicholas II, so I might end up swiping her copy.

I FINALLY wrote some more in my novel today! I got two pages done because I just got so freaking bored on account of our power being out. Using candles to light up the house must've kick-started some inspiration in my brain's creative center. I wrote two pages and I'm pretty happy with myself. Excuse me whilst I commence with my happy dance.

Yearbooks, Presentations, and Strawberries

What's Playing in My Ear:"Leavin"-Jesse McCartney
Ah, don't you love settling back into a school routine after four days away on a retreat? I don't.
I'm definitely going to fail my iSearch presentation later today considering I was too busy to practice my speech completely. Not to mention that I just found a bunch of errors in the final copy I turned in for about 150 points.
Fuck. I hate school.
At least I got my yearbook. I managed to come up with a better signature than last year:
You're as sweet as sugar
You're as sweet as honey
But when you're gone all summer,
Who will lend me money?
Nice poem, huh? It took me about ten minutes to come up with, but everyone loves it! Who knew that cheesy but cute poems made you a popular choice for a yearbook signature?
I was so excited about meeting other Jewish teens at the NCSY convention this week. My wish came true when I met this really cute guy at the NCSY convention who's funny, talented, and friendly, but he has a girlfriend. Story of my life.
I feel like strawberries. I know that's completely unrelated and random, but it's true. I want the strawberry patch I planted last summer to grow some berries that don't rot/grow too little/not ripen. Is that so much to ask of mother nature?!
I'm almost done with "The Mermaid Chair," which is about a married woman falling in love with a monk. How much more scandalous can you get? Wait, don't answer that...
We're also reading "Raptor Red" for Earth Science, but it's kind of like having one of those boring documentaries played on airplanes read out loud to you. I like PBS and National Geographic stuff, but this is ridiculous!
I'll just hang in tight until school is over.
Ten more days....ten more days....just ten more days....

Prayer of the Lost

There is nobody who talks about the light of that star in faraway places.
All of our prayers and all of our thoughts...
A simple melody.
Even if we try to place our wish in the sky with a lunar eclipse,
The incessant rain tore it apart.
A simple melody.

Carry our dreams, unknown butterfly!
Carry our love to a yet unfulfilled native land.
Oh, our butterfly, merely gazing into the wind.
Oh, again tonight, it will be a long night for your wings which cannot fly.
A simple melody,
A simple melody.

There is nobody who talks about the days of yore on this island.
All of our prayers and all of our anger...
A simple melody.
We tried to put our wish on a silver-colored ship,
The incessant sea tore it apart.
A simple melody.

Carry our dreams, unknown god!
Carry our love to a yet unfulfilled native land.
Oh, our people, merely staring into the wind.
Oh, again tonight, it will be a long night for the trapped souls.
A simple melody,
A simple melody.

Frustration at Friends

What's Playing in My Ear:"Feel So Faraway"-Seramyu
I completely forgot how hard it is to make a misanga with yarn. I usually use thread, but I ran out and only had this yarn. Geez, my fingers hurt now. In case you're wondering, a misanga is kind of like a friendship bracelet, and it is quite popular in Brazil and Japan. Look it up. I make them every year around this time for no particular reason. :D
Is it just me, or are all my friends asking each other out? You don't ask out your friends. That's why they are FRIENDS and not DATING POTENTIAL. Ew.
Okay, so yesterday we took a field trip to the police academy and court house. (I know what you're thinking, "high school field trips?" Yes. My life is awesome like that.) We got to sit in on all these cool cases and see police training. It was so worth missing hours 1-6.
I'm going to NCSY tomorrow night. I originally did not plan on going because none of my other friends were going, but one friend who I don't see very often said that she was going and wanted me to come. Naturally, I said I'd sign up to spend some time with her because nobody else I knew was going. That was two weeks ago. I get a phone call from my friend three days before the convention saying that she decided not to go. I'm already signed up, and I'm thinking "WHAT THE FUCK? I SIGN UP BECAUSE YOU WERE GOING, AND NOW YOU'RE STANDING ME UP? COME ON!"
I hate it when your friends ditch you.
So now I'm going to a convention where I don't know anybody. This hasn't happened since I was in fifth grade.
Shoot me. Please.
I'm off to go pack.