Sunday, November 29, 2009

Timeless



Baby come close let me tell you this
In a whisper my heart says you know it too
Baby we both share a secret wish
And you feel my love reaching out to you

Timeless
Don't let it end, oh no
Now that you're right here in my arms where you should stay
Hold tight baby
Timeless
Don't let it fade out of sight
Just let the moments sweep us both away
Lifting us to where
We both agree
It's just timeless love

I see it all baby in your eyes
When you look at me I know I feel it too
So let's sail away and meet forever baby
Where the crystal ocean melts into the sky
We shouldn't let the moment pass
You making me shiver let's make it last
Why should we lose it?
Don't ever let me go

Timeless
Don't let it end, oh no
Now that you're right here in my arms where you should stay
Hold tight baby
Timeless
Don't let it fade out of sight
Just let the moments sweep us both away
Lifting us to where
We both agree
It's just timeless love

Timeless
Baby, it's timeless
Oh, baby it's timeless

Timeless
Don't let it fade out of sight
Just let the moments sweep us both away
Lifting us to where
We both agree
This is timeless
This is timeless...

Love

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Blue Tomorrow



When it’s tomorrow, we agree not to meet again
Sitting in the shop at the end of the road, I ordered a cup of "missing you"
When it’s tomorrow, we can only let love pass by
Before daybreak, two people's smiling faces become a yellowed photograph

Around me (loneliness is spreading)
Vision (is being blurred by tears)
I left “I love you” at the bottom of my heart and put them on the tip of my lips

When it’s tomorrow, you will leave my side
When it’s tomorrow, I will wish upon a shooting star alone
Just like the ending of a movie
Our ending fulfilled the prediction of tears
Broken promises all over the ground, the yesterday that cannot be pieced together again
But I still look forward to the appearance of a miracle, oh no
Your shadow is drifting further and further away.

Love is still lingering in my room
Before the memory becomes real, in a moment
It felt like you were in front of my eyes

Around me (loneliness is spreading)
This vision (is being blurred by tears)
A sentence “I love you”, I left it deep in the bottom of my heart
and put it on the tip of my lips

When it’s tomorrow, you will leave my side
When it’s tomorrow, I will wish upon a shooting star alone
Just like the ending of a movie
Our ending fulfilled the prediction of tears
Broken promises all over the ground, the yesterday that cannot be pieced together again
But I still look forward to the appearance of a miracle, oh no
Your shadow is drifting further and further away.

Without you, love starts to hibernate
Loneliness will occupy every day
I stand under the streetlight, on the side of the cold street
That place where we once embraced
Is the roof under which we once seek shelter from the rain together, oh

When it’s tomorrow, you will leave my side
When it’s tomorrow, I will wish upon a shooting star alone
Just like the ending of a movie
Our ending fulfilled the prediction of tears
Broken promises all over the ground, the yesterday that cannot be pieced together again
But I keep looking forward to the appearance of a miracle, oh no

I still reminisce the past when we were in love
I’m still waiting for you to come back to my side
Tears are falling on the side of my cold pillow
I hit pause on time until you appear again
I cannot stand each of the days without you, oh no

I love you, it will not change
I’ll be loving you till eternity

Monday, October 05, 2009

Me



Run, dance facing the wind and waves

Take away troubles

Only want to hold on to this moment, this second

Laughter and taste of youth fill the air

It's a beautiful and gorgeous pigment

The world no longer only has signs of loneliness


Never wavered, never stopped building

OH~ The castle of dreams

I will quietly pray

To see your smile once again

It's gonna be me


Throw away your troubles and run

It's gonna be me

Listen to my heart's earnest beating


Pull you into my arms,

what is more important than you?

Wonderful like a fairy tale

It's gonna be me

I want to tightly grab you

It's gonna be me



The omen of happiness, will be known the next second

At least can touch the wet edges of your eyes

Sleeping quietly next to me

It's gonna be me


Laughter and taste of youth fill the air

It's a beautiful and gorgeous pigment

The world no longer only has signs of loneliness


Never wavered, never stopped building

OH~ The castle of dreams

I will quietly pray

To see your smile once again

It's gonna be me



Throw away your troubles and run

It's gonna be me

Listen to my heart's earnest beating

Pull you into my arms, what is more important than you?

Wonderful like a fairy tale


I'm your coat, love won't catch a cold, chase away all the troubles

Sadness can lessen, we can be good

I can't stop missing you, you are the remedy

It's gonna be me


The sky is no longer full of clouds

It's gonna be me


Don't wanna say goodbye

Declare to the world, proudly

I'm loving you

It's gonna be me


Throw away your troubles

and run trouble to ruin

It's gonna be me


Listen to my heart's honest beating

Can you hear?


Pull you into my arms, what is more important than your love?

Wonderful like a fairy tale


It's gonna be(me)


I want to tightly grab you

I must embrace you tightly

It's gonna be me


The omen of happiness, will be known the next second

As soon as your eyes open


At least can touch the wet edges of your eyes

You shine so bright



Sleeping quietly next to me

It's gonna be me

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Happiness' Eyes




I never once forgot you
I thought of only you
Then what about you?
Did you forget me?
My tears fall from my eyes
I feel betrayed

I thought of finding you
I honestly have no clue, I don't really know
In my eyes,
you are the only one in the world
I don't have anything to say
I can't go forward without you
I don't have tears
Look at me in front of you
Me, who lives for you alone

The time came for us to meet
You are in front of me
crying with nervousness
I wiped your tears
then I held your hand
I'm going to rise and give you,
who's been with me
happiness

With my eyes, I long for you
In my heart, I've found you
I can see the light that brightens me
I can't let go of the eternal happiness
Can you see me?
Call my name!
By your side I will stay
I love you!
Let's be together, you and me forever

I never once forgot you
I thought of only you
Then what about you?
Did you forget me?
My tears fall from my eyes
I feel betrayed

The time came for us to meet
You are in front of me
crying with nervousness
I dried your tears
then I held your hand
I'm going to rise and give you,
who's been with me
happiness

With my eyes, I long for you
In my heart, I've found you
I can see the light that brightens me
I can't let go of the eternal happiness
Can you see me?
Call my name! By your side
I will stay
I love you!
Let's be together, you and me forever

The happiness
that the bluebirds give
is always near to us

With my eyes, I long for you
In my heart, I've found you
I can see the light that brightens me
I can't let go of the eternal happiness
Can you see me?
Call my name!
Open your heart whenever
and see that I'm always in front of you
Call my name! By your side
I will stay
I love you!
Let's be together, you and me forever

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Thanks For Your Tenderness



Thank you for being so gentle
Holding your love
Waiting quietly for me
My two hands were also shaking
But what can I give you?
I'm just somebody he forgets.
And that made my heart instantly empty
I will embed you in my heart
Maybe someday later
a dream will grow from within

I don't know, I don't understand, I don't want
Why has my heart done this?
I actually wanted to come closer to you
but in the end I stayed along till dawn
I don't know, I don't understand, I don't want
Why has my heart been this way?
the beauty of love is always in loneliness
I will give you the best of my love

Thank you for being so gentle
the light with a smile
it only warms me up
but doesn't disturb my winter
I still haven't decided where to go yet
so I can't promise to let you accompany me
because I'm afraid you'll be like me
I will embed you in my heart
Maybe someday later
a dream will grow from within

I don't know, I don't understand, I don't want
Why has my heart done this?
I actually wanted to come closer to you
but in the end I stayed along till dawn
I don't know, I don't understand, I don't want
Why has my heart been this way?
the beauty of love is always in loneliness
I will give you the best of my love

Thank you for being so gentle
the light with a smile
it only warms me up
but doesn't disturb my winter
I still haven't decided where to go yet
so I can't promise to let you accompany me
because I'm afraid you'll be like me
I will embed you in my heart
Maybe someday later
a dream will grow from within

I don't know, I don't understand, I don't want
Why has my heart done this?
I actually wanted to come closer to you
but in the end I stayed along till dawn
I don't know, I don't understand, I don't want
Why has my heart been this way?
the beauty of love is always in loneliness
I will give you the best of my love

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

HAPPY 999!



Wow, so much has happened since I came home...
Jaebeom left 2PM, the age of girlbands has begun, GD's solo CD hit top charts, AND DANIELA IS ROOMING HERE FOR LIKE A WEEK! :D The only bad thing about that is that she's a bit of a neat freak, and I'm a walking mess. My theory is that organized people are just too lazy to look for things.
So mom said to me this morning: "Before you send in your college applications, why don't you take all of that Chinese junk off of your Facebook? You look like a brainless twit."
WHAT
THE
FUCK.
Sorry mom, but número uno, it's not just Chinese because there's Korean, Taiwanese, and Japanese stuff on there too. And dos, this "junk" you speak of is an artist's expression of their very being, this music is an extension of their human souls. Tres, there's nothing on my Facebook that any college will dislike, rather they will be impressed by my global interests and will like the face that I take interest in cultures other than my own: I know that there's more to the world than "ZOMG AMERICA IS PWNING TEH WORLD." Finalmente, my Facebook, unlike yours, is set on PRIVATE, so nobody can read anything without my okay.
SO, suck it. I ain't taking nothing off of my Facebook.
I'm sort of ashamed that my mom can be so closed-minded and stereotypical, being Danish and all...
But no mind, nadie necesita comprender a mi todo el tiempo. The world may never understand me, but I'm cool with that. If there's one thing I learned in Denmark, it's that I need to accept myself before the world can accept me.
On that note, I've decided to try something new this year, I'm helping Miki-hime do the costumes for the drama department's fall play: "Flowers for Algernon." Never read the book, all I know is that I have to deal with the lead character's actor having dreadlocks. Yaaaay. At least doing the costumes is fun!
Erin also wants to start up the astronomy club again (YAY STAR NERDS! :D), which I'm all game for, that stuff looks great on college resumés. The only thing is that it's a hard club to maintain, plan, and recruit new members for... hope I'm up to the challenge! The sweatshirts are a great bonus too, I'd join just for those!
The whole college crunch is really starting to set in, I have to retake my ACTs, get the rest of my recommendation letters in, and fill out my applications. This bites the big one, I have seriously no time for anything fun anymore taking into account AP English, work, costumes, astronomy club and college stuff.
Time to go put up more posters~!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Danish Diary Entry no.5

Friday was the start of 'Family Weekend,' a rather exciting but nerve-wrecking day for me. You see, I was set supposed to spend the day with my mom's brother, Lennart, and my cousin Emilie. I hadn't seen my cousin in TEN YEARS, and she's a lot different than I remember from when we were little, so I was a little nervous as to the two of us being together again.
So Lennart and Emilie came down to Dronningmøle, and the five of us had some coffee and cakes, talking a bit and getting comfortable. Emilie and I were obviously a bit awkward at first, with her purple hair and lip piercing, and my dorky Old Navy jeans and big glasses. After listening to my grandparents and uncle make small talk and discuss politics and whatnot, I put my weekend bag in the car, said goodbye, and rode with Lennart and Emilie to Roskilde. The car ride was filled with my uncle's funny jokes, and me talking about everyone back home. In Roskilde, we saw an old church, and stopped at a little outdoor cafe for lunch. I spent some quality time connecting with Emilie, talking about school, work, fashion, and everything normal teenage girls discuss. Even though the two of us hadn't been together for a decade, it appeared to everyone else that we'd grown up side by side.
We then drove out to the FAAAAR end of the countryside to visit my great-aunt Kate, dubbed 'The Hippie.' Reasons for this nickname are quite obvious and self explanatory (Mommy warned me not to touch, smell, pick, eat, or bring on the plane ANYTHING growing in her 'herb garden'). We spent about an hour there, eating Danish lemon tarts (nothing homemade, of course), and assuring Auntie Kate that I don't have a boyfriend nor do I need her to set me up with a Danish pothead thank you very much. Aunt Kate said that I wasn't rebellious enough....DOES THIS WOMAN KNOW WHO SHE BE TALKIN' TO?? xD
After leaving Aunt Kate's, sans-any funny smelling sustances, the three of us went grocery shopping fo dinner. Let me tell you, a Tikotzki, a Jacobsen, and a Tick in a grocery store...not a quiet, calm combination! We ran around, making weird noises, talking in strange accents, throwing food around, and just causing enough general chaos to get a few weird stares.
We then drove to the new Tikotzki residence of my uncle, aunt, and younger cousins in Holbæk, where I got to be Santa Claus and get re-aquainted with Victoria and Oliver. We had dinner, danced to some new CDs (courtesy of mommy to Lennart), and watched 'Talent' (the Danish rendition of 'America's Got Talent') before Lennart drove Emilie home. I spent my night in the 'Lene Suite.'
The next morning was spent walking around inner Holbæk shops helping my aunt and uncle pick out gifts for everyone. Afterwards, I spent some quality time with Oliver and Victoria: we broke some language barriers, played on the trampoline, built a fort, and they helped me overcome a huge fear: DANISH DISNEY CHANNEL. (Still makes me shiver)
On Sunday, we drove into København to take part in the ultimate dorky turista experience: CHEESY CANAL TOUR. We met up with Nichlas, the giant, and Emilie, my new BFF, and then proceeded to seat ourselves between dorky Italian tourists. The bigger cousins and I spent more of the our cracking jokes, made fun of Emilie picking her brother's teeth, and talking in funny accents than paying attention to the tour guide. It was good to see that my big cousins had that happy attitude I loved and remembered. After the boat tour, we went to a small pizza shop (where Emilie's ex-boyfriend worked) and got sandwiches. We sat in the park, people watching, listening to Nik's crazy college-boy antics, and just spending quality time catching up.
After parting from my awesome cousins, we went back to the house and lazed around:the kids napped, and I attempted to tackle my summer reading. We watched 'Man of the Year,' but nobody really liked it much.
Monday was school for the kiddies so I said goodbye to Victoria early, and accompanied Oliver to Kindergarden. It was Oliver's birthday, so I helped Lisbeth bring the homemade cake to his classmates and took pictures: they sang, gave a class gift, ate some cake, and raised the Danish flag. I said goodbye to my last cute little cousin and auntie, Lennart and I made the long drive back to Dronningmøle. We stopped to get schwarma for lunch, and had a lot of time to really talk a lot of things out, a BIG deal for two goofballs like us. We then stopped by his friend, the jewler, to pick up some last gifts for my family. He insisted that I have a present from him, so I got my very first Danish Skagen watch, which I absolutely love and will take good care of. When I got home, we walked to a local store to buy some postcards for my friends back home.
Tuesday was shopping and finishing day, Morfar and I went to see an old monastary which used to be the biggest building in Northen Europe. We then proceeded to buy all of the various snacks I listed to bring home: remoulade, solbært tea, franskevafflen, and of course, LOTS OF LICORICHE.
We then went to Hornbæk to buy some Tshirts for the family, and then watched some more sappy British soaps.
I REALLY don't want to go home yet. ;(

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Danish Diary Entry no.4

So, Monday was kind of a day for me to get over my train trauma. Mormor and I went to the beach where we sat together and taked about her childhood, my mom and uncle growing up, and a bit about myself. It was nice to just have some time for the two of us to talk and try to understand each other better. We must have sat there for an hour, just spending time trying to fix the rift that had developed between us. Then we drove through town a bit, going to the smaller houses and older buildings.
On Tuesday, we went to various little grocery stores, trying regional specialty foods. My mom had suggested that I try the Danish variation of fish 'n chips, and my grandparents wanted to buy it pre-packaged at a GROCERY store! I insisted that we go get it fresh from a stand on the docks, and no other way was acceptable. I didn't want to sound demanding, but if you're going to be eating something tha fattening, it must be eaten properly. So we went down to the docks at Gilileje, and ordered it fresh from the friers on the grill. I must say, if I had died on the spot, I'd go straight to heaven. Happiness is a basket of fried fish and potatoes, NO FORGETTING THE REMOULADE!!! :D Afterwards we did some more driving and walking around the area, seeing churches and buildings.
Wednesday morning, Morfar and I got up extra early to go to the local store for an early-bird discount on shirts for Mormor. We waited early in the mornin for about twenty minutes, and when the doors opened, we realized that we'd read the wrong date in the paper! The discount was on flash drives and printers, not shirts! So Morfar dragged me away from drooling over the gogeous moniters and into the Gilileje harbor to see all the old and new boats that were coming in. We even some some Greenland boats, that was interesting! After we came back and ate some breakfast, we drove through the countryside to get to Fredriksværk, a town founded as a gunowder factory. We drove to a commercial buffalo farm, where I saw my first live buffalo! Quite the experience, here as opposed to in the US. We saw the REAL country side of Denmark, lots of commercial farming and rural homes...very picturesque. We walked around the town and saw the old gun powder factory, now a theater. We then drove to Helsingør, where we ate at an all-you-can eat BBQ grill, and stuffed ourseleves silly. Morfar then showed me the local, summer-only, synagogue. (He's the unofficial caretaker.)
Thursday, we had to take the dog to the vet in Farum for a surgery to remove a gland. Morfar and I drove up, dropped of Tør, and went for KØBENHAVN DAY! We first saw the park where Hans Christian Anderson is buried, and then the Jewish cemetary where most of my family is buried. We then went to the art museum: Ny Carlsberg Glyptotek, where they had a special exhibition on masks from around the world that was fascinating. They also had a fantastic gallery with Danish and French painters, as well as ancient mediterranean art. My favorites were the Degas and Renoir pieces. We then went to the public botanical gardens run by the university. They let you climb to the top of the main greenhouse, humid as back home, but with a fantastic view! I also FINALLY ate my solbært (blackcurrant) sorbet that I waited four years to eat! <3 When we got home after getting the poor dog, I walked by myself to a shop I had seen earlier where they were selling some cool-looking Danish clothing. I spotted a black and purple scarf with stars on it that was selling for about 80 Danish Krøner, so I decided to get myself something nice to remember the trip by. By that time, the weather was so perfect, so I decided to walk by myself to the beach. I didn't swim, (actually good, because later I discovered that the oceanside had a sewage leak @_@) but I spent some time on the sand alone with my thoughts...wondering about a multitude of things, and avoiding getting stepped on by some local horseback riders. xD

Monday, August 17, 2009

Danish Diary no.3/Swedish Diary Special

Wow....do I have a lot to talk about!

So, Thursday was 'Museum Day.' We drove into main Københaven and saw the city itself with a drive-by tour. I'd seen most of the castles and buildings when I was younger, so instead we went to two museums: The Danish Resistance Museum and The Danish Jewish History Museum. The Danish Resistance Museum showed how the Danish government and people reacted in resistance to Hitler's Nazi occupation of Denmark during WWII. It had a lot of artifacts used by underground groups to sabatoge German operations within the country. The Danish Jewish History Museum obviously discussed Jewish History in Denmark from he 1400s to present day, and the building itself was interestingly constructed. I got to see the royal library and a little more of inner Copenhagen.

Friday was 'Traveling Day.' We took a ferry from Helsingør to Helsingborg, Sweden, and then drove the 2 hours from Helsingborg to Gothenburg (pronounced yoo-teh-bore by the locals). I was spending the Shabbat weekend with my co-worker from camp and friend, Mushky. I met her parents, 5 sisters, and 2 of her 5 brothers. Their house, the chabad house, was situated across from the park, where free music from the sommerkoncerts played from early morning to midnight. I wasn't the only person spending the weekend at the chabad house, two other families stayed there too: first, a Swedish couple who were moving to Israel with their three children, and an Israeli family consisting of a young couple, their two young sons, the husband's two sisters, and the wife's mother, who were touring Europe. This family was not your average yuppie-duppie bunch of Israelis, as I first thought. The husband's and sisters' father, mother, younger brother, and younger sister had been killed by a terrorist's suicude bomb in a Jerusalem cafe, while the two sisters suffered major burn injuries. Seeing the strength and faith of this family made me really think about my own life: wondering if I am happy, if I told the people I loved how much they mean to me, and if I appreciate life's frailty and make the most of it.
Shabbat was a memorable experience in that tiny but cozy home in Sweden, one of the most beautiful I've had.
After Shabbat, Mushky helped me book a train ticket back to Helsingborg, where I'd meet my grandparents and go back to Denmark. The direct trains were all full, so I'd have to stop and switch a few times; I was a bit nervous about doing that on my own, but Mushky reassured me that it'd go fine.

On Sunday, after the other families had left, Mushky and her sister Chava took me through the Gothernburg area, on the metro, and to the boats: where we met her family for a quick boat ride to an island before taking me to the train station.
Then it all began.
We looked at my ticket in the station, and it said I had to switch from a train to a bus in a station called 'Laholm' and then back to a train in 'Angelholm' and then get to Helsingborg. Seemed simple enough. They put me on the train, and said goodbye. The train ride was scenic and pretty, not too bumpy, and only one creepy Swedish man tried to talk to me, but I gave him a mean look and he walked away.
I got to Laholm and got off, looking for a bus. I didn't see one, so I asked a conductor where the bus would be. She told me that I didn't have to take a bus, so I hopped back on.
Then I got to Angelholm. I got off, looking for the train I was supposed to switch to, but it wasn't there. I figured it'd arrive in a few minutes, so I sat and waited. Another train came, but it didn't match the number on my ticket. I asked a conductor when a Heslingborg train would come by, and got some garbled Swedish answer.
So I waited in this seedy and scary station. There was nobody in the station, only ticket machines, and the cafe and bathrooms were closed. I figured a train would come by. So I sat for fifteen minutes, twenty minutes, a half hour, and then an hour. Night fell, I was worried, alone, cold, and I had to pee REALLY badly. I was starting to seriously freak and wonder if my family was worrying about me, and if I'd find a way back.
After a little over an hour, I heard something coming along the tracks. I was thankful to see a train, ANY train, I didn't really care where it was going. It said 'Malmo,' so I figured if I at least made it to Malmo, I'd get to a station with real people who could help me. I got on board, and looked for a conductor. Nobody was on the train except the driver. In all honesty, I was surprised because this meant that there was no way for tickets to be checked: anyone could hitch a free train ride! I looked around for a bathroom, and I thought I spotted one, but the door to the bathrooms were LOCKED! I was so frustrated, I pulled the door open in a Hulk-esque scene, and to my shock found that I hadn't forced open the door to the bathroom, but rather the pilot's room! He started screaming at me in Swedish, so I shut the doors and RAN! I'm lucky he didn't throw me off the train for acting like a terrorist! I found the actual bathroom, but the door there was also locked! Once again, I forced the doors, and was finally able to use the toilet after almost 2 hours. After that I figured that I should ask one of the other passengers where the train was stopping. I found a seat near an older woman, and asked her if she spoke English: she didn't. Through my broken Swedish, I managed to ask if the train was stopping in Helsingborg. To my amazement, she nodded yes, and I screamed for joy and hugged her! How's that for good fortune?
I made it back to my proper, where my poor grandfather was waiting at the platform (six cigarettes and five phone calls he made before I came kept him sane). We determined that my ticket coresponded to the old system during construction on the railroads, and somehow got to me through a bug in the system: I never really had to get off the train! I went home, ate, and fell asleep immediately.
For 180 Swedish Krona, I definitely had an adventure! But I'm staying away from trains until the nightmares stop...

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Danish Diary Entry no.2

Weather is ok....it's been raining a lot...

Last night we watched a French film of 'The Three Musketeers' with Danish subtitles, so you can imagine how much I actually understood! They do have some BBC programming here, as well as American shows, so it's alright.

I met my grandfather's cousin, her husband, and my step-third cousin (iI don't know if that's even how we're related) who's seven from LA. He was the cutest little chatty thing, reminded me of myself at that age! We went to Horbæk, Helsingør (where Hamlet takes place) and Gilleleje today to shop and walk around, it was a good place to take pictures. The owner of one of the stalls was an Israeli guy selling Danish designer bags, so I got something there (and got my horrible Hebrew criticized...AGAIN.) We also went to a pharmacy, and they have free scales (to encourage healthy weight) and free gum (to help people quit smoking). My morfar made me weigh myself, because he was worried that I wasn't eating enough! Typical Jewish grandparents... We checked ticket prices so I can get a train ticket back from Sweden this weekend.

So we're pan-frying fish for dinner, and then we'll walk my new bonde Danish boyfriend to the beach...Tør needs to stop chewing my ankle, though...it gets annoying!

Monday, August 10, 2009

Danish Diary Entry no.1

So...I'm really here. What a trip it's been so far, but let's start from the beginning...

My flight, the last plane leaving the nternational terminal left O'Hare at 10 PM Central time, so Dad and I made it around 7 PM. We checked in all my crap, but they wouldn't give him a gate pass to walk me through. There was an Royal Jordanian flight leaving that evening too, so the place was swarming with pregnant Muslims! We ate some dinner, then I walked through to security. Leaving Dad was hard, I cried a bit because I've never really done this before.

So I checked myself in, and managed to switch to an aisle seat on an overbooked flight (proof that God exists). When we actually boarded the flight, they took SIX, yes six, headcounts. Some lazy butthole didn't make sure that he was at the right terminal... So we waited almost an hour for this shmo.

As for the flight itself: the toilet made a noise like a gun every time you flushed (and scared me shitless every time), the stewardesses gave me coffee instead of tea, a 2 year-old British kid stole one of my shoes, my neighbor snored, the kosher meals tasted terrible (as expected), and the entire flight was nausiatingly turbulent.

I'd say it was a good plane ride. :D

I only slept for about 2-3 hours of the 8-hour ride, but it was around 1:30 PM Copenhagen time when I arrived, so I felt okay. There were no problems in passkontrol, and my grandparents picked me up as planned. They showed me everything as we drove through the city: kosher butcher, old family-owned shops, cemetaries, etc. We went to the local grocer to pick up some essentials, and back to the house in Drønningmulle.

And there, I met "uncle" Tøre: the half-labrador, half-somethinguberlygigantic doggie. Mormor says he has a crush on me.
I'm expected to take short showers and also not supposed to flush the toilet paper due to plumbing issues.

We spent the afternoon on the porch drinking tea, talking, and shooing Tøre away from the cookies. Now I think I'll watch the news and have a nap.

mmmm~kooken...

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Everything





As a rain shower approaches,
the scent of loneliness is in the air in this town
My shadow on the asphalt
seemed a little different than usual

The world continues to quickly spin
as if to reflect the continually changing sky
onto my trembling heart

A signal changing from red to green
During this journey I can't turn back from
I want to continue on believing in tomorrow
There are times that I stop and look back
as I stand alone in this evening shower
But I'm not afraid of anything

After the rain I can see
sunflowers in the twilight from the window
Dyed by the sunset,
they continue to wait for the morning sun

It seems we could lose sight of
what's important over time, but
I'll continue walking on with my unyielding memories
clutched in my arms

I painted a dream of a limitless future
dyed in a vivid blue
to ease the suffering of my heart
During my limited time [on this earth]
I have etched my memories deep into my heart
The sun will rise again

When I cross this long hill,
no matter what I see in front of me
I don't want to have regrets
I want to keep turning on the light
that shines on tomorrow

A signal changing from red to green
During this journey I can't turn back from
I want to continue on believing in tomorrow
Run, run! Reach your hand out toward your dreams
Yell, yell! As far as your voice will carry
As [much as] your heart tells you

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Feel Your Breeze



I say, Feel your breeze!
Anytime, anywhere in my heart.
Feel your breeze!
Never stop walking now oh~

The number of wounds that won't vanish are increasing;
It's like the wind is piercing me.
Those little worries you keep to yourself,
I'm sure everyone has some now...

Of course, the night is long,
And you sink down deeply.
When the sun rises up in the morning,
Yes, it'll be gleaming.

Someday the future you dreamed of
will be a little different now.
The tears shed for those dreams,
Keep shining without fading.
Your heart will always watch over you
with the feelings that tear your heart apart.
Feel all of your dreams eternally,
overflowing like those summer clouds.

I say, Feel your breeze!
Anytime, anywhere in my heart.
Feel your breeze!
Never stop walking now oh~
There is nothing we cannot do!
You think like that, but...
we usually don't handle things well,
and soon become overwhelmed.

Of course, the dream is far away,
High in the sky and seeming to grow hazy.
But the wind is your feelings,
Gently carrying you along.

Someday the future we dreamed of
Will be so close we can touch it!
The wind will always blow on us;
So, now, let's walk together from here.
Your heart will always watch over you.
with the feelings that tear your heart apart.
I can sense you eternally,
Overflowing like this season.

Tomorrow's Memories


Wanting to make the sunset I saw with you on that day last forever
Within my memory I reached out to touch you over and over, but

The same scenery and feelings will never return again
So I'll surely turn to look back at the shining dream from my past

Even in the brand new future, sadness spills over
Staining the heart, making everyone stop in place and lose sight of it

In the midst of the changing seasons
What color will we paint tomorrow?
If we can strongly, strongly believe in each other
What color future will be waiting?

Even the most precious memory will fade someday
So I averted my eyes from reality and ran away to hide behind the word "dream"

Even if the broken yesterday was nothing but a mistake
It's not too late, you can start over as many times as it takes

In the midst of the changing ages
How many times will I love someone?
If we can deeply, deeply support each other
What will I be able to do for you?

Piling upon each other deep in my heart
Joy and sadness, warmth and hatred
The days we shared after our chance meeting
Are surely etched into my heart forever

In the midst of the changing seasons
What color will we paint tomorrow?
If we can strongly, strongly believe in each other
What color future will be waiting?

What color will we paint tomorrow?

Monday, June 29, 2009

Stormy Smiles



So so, there's nothing good happening
Following blindly in this passionate life
Everyday, a fool
Digging my own grave and fall
But my heart seem to still long for something
In this everyday life without emotional feelings
An imaginary hope is "believe in love"
One day, the faith I once stepped on
Because I met you
My blood rushed

Facing the possibilities of breaking down
I can't afford to hesitate
Seeing myself being so weak
I'm very angry
It's just like being alone
Sighing
The blossomed flowers in the clay vase
Looked at me shakily

No matter who it is
We all live by depending on each other
Those innocent true feelings
Will heal our scars

Smile again, thank you
Smile again, in tears
We were born
Maybe the trials in life will make us stronger
Smile again, because you're here
Smile again, I'm happy
Though I've never mentioned it
It's the very first time
I treasure this feeling, which is like the storm

In times of sufferings, lean on me
This be my wish
The love of the most important person
Is a bandage for the heart
Unable to live a normal life like everyone
I guess it's worth complimenting too
You, who saved me
Looked at me the same way

A heart without leisure and tranquillity
I've hurt you without knowing it
But if we learn to forgive
We will become true to ourselves

Smile again, thank you
Smile again, no matter how many times
I feel I'm still able to stand up
My courage is a flowing fountain
Smile again, if there's only one person
Smile again, no one will survive
With perplexed feelings, in faith so true
I pray, that my love will be just like the storm

So so, there's nothing good happening
Following blindly in this passionate life
Everyday, a fool
Digging my own grave and fall
But my heart seem to still long for something
In this everyday life without emotional feelings
An imaginary hope is "believe in love"
One day, the faith I once stepped on
Because I met you
My blood rushed

Smile again, thank you
Smile again, in tears
We were born
Maybe the trials in life will make us stronger
Smile again, because you're here
Smile again, I'm happy
Though I've never mentioned it
It's the very first time
I treasure this feeling, which is like the storm

Thursday, June 18, 2009

My Heaven



Love you girl, only you are my heaven
sing it together
la la la
Go go go…

24/7 If I try going to heaven
24/7 it feels like dreams, heaven
24/7 eternity, heaven
24/7 heaven let’s go

It’s the truth if I say you are my eternal lover
everything in the past is like never let go
never knew that love could come and go just like that yo
waiting for you day and night in my dreams and go
summer flow in the night, take flight and glow
that’s forever love

That “you would be with me tomorrow”, it’s gone
Even though we had great times together, why have you gone
Love has always failed to grab my hands
Only you somehow are a little different
I always felt this was fate
From now on...
you’re the only one in my life

I want to see you, I want to see you
I’m waiting for you by that sea
My feelings for you
Whether it’s the morning, the afternoon, or the evening
I want to see you, you are my heaven

happiness・・・sadness・・・tears・・・

sky・・・stars・・・and my heaven

Only you are missing
But the world is so colorless
The depth of the damage is immeasurable
Those lips of that days are still warm
But even if I keep remembering them, I’m at loss of knowing what to do

Oh baby, memories of you are still in my heart
Oh baby, your messages still remain on my body
So that this unable-to-cool-down heat can be stopped
Oh baby, the cold rain is falling

Because of you

Please don’t vanish, don’t vanish
Please stop the time at that summer
I’m still holding those memories, whether it’s autumn, winter, or spring
For eternity, you are my heaven

Hey, hey, listen to me

Finally the message came
There’s only “I’m sorry”, I really don’t understand at all
Just one more time, come to my side, smiling like those times

I want to see you, I want to see you
I’m waiting for you by that sea
My feelings for you
Whether it’s the morning, the afternoon, or the evening
I want to see you, you are my heaven

24/7 My heaven

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Lonely Sprint



The scenery here is called "once loved"

Once existed your caress and gentleness

Tearing the ticket stub, wandering alone...

The price is the anguish of missing you

You said be friends, but we are not friends

We are more unfamiliar with each other than strangers

After re-building the ruins of my emotions Who will come visit occasionally?

I stand at the road of memories

Walking into the loneliness of my left chest
Naked and conspicuous disappointment
The transparent pain
I can't say I am tired
It's because I am too fragile
I follow fate's arrow
Helplessly, inexorably moving on to the next person's warmth
I haven't loved you enough

Yet you want me to let go

In Time's secret garden
You never left


I said I love you too freely

So freely, I looked like I was just saying it

I never loved the view of our future
I only miss your everything

I stand at the road of memories
Walking into the loneliness of my left chest
Naked and conspicuous disappointment

The transparent pain
I can't say I am tired
It's because I am too fragile
I follow fate's arrow

Helplessly, inexorably moving on to the next person's warmth
I haven't loved you enough
Yet you want me to let go

In Time's secret garden
You never left


My love for you and thoughts of you,
Move extremely quickly toward memories

All they could see was a fake calmness


I stand at the road of memories
Walking into the loneliness of my left chest

Naked and conspicuous disappointment

The transparent pain

I can't say I am tired

It's because I am too fragile

I follow fate's arrow
Helplessly, inexorably moving on to the next person's warmth

I haven't loved you enough
Yet you want me to let go
In Time's secret garden
You never left

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Something More Important Than Words



The cut off melody repeated so many times that we’ll never forget it
Because there is something more important than words right here

In the strong wind there is absolutely no reason to try to force a smile on your face
Fragments of distorted dreams that scatter upon the pavement in ruins

I wonder what song it is that expresses out love though we try to act cool
Well, let’s get on with our lives

The transparent melody hides in our chests so as not to get lost
Because there is something more important than words right here
Wow wow wow wow

Even though I truly feel like I can see it or touch it, the ideals are out of reach
In the end I became a complainer who didn’t let you see my cry because of the pain of weakness

Now we can take our life-sized smiles and use them to change every future day
These hopes we call our lives

We will throw our dreams into the distant sky and wipe away our tears,
Because our hearts are more likely to give us the answer than words will
Wow wow wow wow

For example, if our stories play a tune,
The dawn of that time will dance down and separate the two of us
Even if we are to part, leaving behind the words, “See you again”
I will still have had that one summer with you

The clouds give way to a splendid day without questioning where they are going
There could never be a love as great as yours
The cut off melody repeated so many times that we’ll never forget it
Because it is something more important than words I sent it to you
Wow wow wow wow

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Day By Day



Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind My heart vanished like smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
Say goodbye

Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on longer than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless

What is it about that person next to you, did she make you cry?
Dear, can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live on
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day
Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye…

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with her, so I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous

You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live on
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day

I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live on
Those tears will dry completely

As time passes by
It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you


Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live on
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day

Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart, say goodbye

Monday, May 11, 2009

Don't U Ever Stop



No one knows this story, I'll tell you it slowly
I'm not good at saying it, but you are not alone.

Unforgettable feelings, this confusion..
I'll embrace it all and leave.

The flower of you bloomed in the corner of this treacherous town.
Honestly, I really wanted a night that I felt you

Don't you ever stop, you know it, don't stop
Fate is (don't stop) digesting every single one of us.
Stop, you are hurting me, Top
I was confused..admiring this town.

We'll count the nights we spent here together
This is our final romance, so let's look straight at it.

Don't you ever stop.

I wanna tell u secrets.
A one-time-only party starts tonight (tonight..)
There's nothing to lose, we can't go back
We'll risk it all - let show begin!

The flower of you is fluttering in the back alley of hesitation
Not saying what you know is just void and pointless.

Don't you ever stop, you know it, don't stop
Fate is (don't stop) digesting every single one of us.
Stop, you are hurting me, Top
from the day we set out

Don't you ever stop...

Are you Ready?
Hell yeah!!

From corner to corner, there were no remnants of greatness
Of course, we all know that greatness is born within
Bang bang, try stopping that blazing flame
Swallow the tense breaths of truth, cry it out, than be silent

Yeah, bear the rising sun's standard
Lock on living the Rock way
The pitiful adults we've pictured as kids
"Anybody Home?"
"KNOCK, KOCK, KNOCK!"

Don't you ever stop, you know it, don't stop
Fate is (don't stop) digesting every single one of us.
Stop, you are hurting me, Top
from the day we set out

Let's honestly fix our eyes on the future...

Don't you ever stop.... STOP!

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

9095



The manager who seems obliging guides us by saying 'this way',
Turning on the light on the long hallway, she says 'Red to the right',
The destroyed revolving door; blissful artifical flowers on the floor,
I passed the setted wall as if I energy to pass through it

Where're you going baby?
I wait on this chair; don't open your eyes until I count to seven

Pret un, the dewdrops of night on your neck; to the extent that you lost your voice,
Deux, from the mechanical treets to between your fingers,
Trois, the spider web which entangles and entangles like this, continously,
The sandclock which started to go backwards to 9095

The noise that echoes throughout the long hallway, 'Have we met before?',
'The blue to the left of the red',
The rusted angel's wings; yesterday's dream that has been deferred,,
Concealing your eyes from the direction of the claps

Who are you? Tell me baby,
You won't show it to anyone, even if you put your hands on the mirror

Et quatre, the scent of nostalgia even on your back, your hot breath,
Cinq, the eyes which rise even in the darkness; if it's not permitted,
Six, if your tears are reviving, then somehow,
The remains which slowly come to live in 9095

Don't try to find anything more than this for I'll be by your side,
Even though you can't go back once you have opened your eyes,
If you still like it then, silently,

Pret un, the dewdrops of night on your neck; to the extent that you lost your voice,
Deux, from the mechanical treets to between your fingers,
Trois, the spider web which entangles and entangles like this, continously,
The sandclock which started to go backwards to 9095

Et quatre, the scent of nostalgia even on your back, your hot breath,
Cinq, the eyes which rise even in the darkness; if it's not permitted,
Six, if your tears are reviving, then somehow,
The remains which slowly come to live in 9095

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Stay With You



The wind blowing through is swaying the new green curtain
One petal drops down, decorating your face.

What should I say? I want to say something but I can't
I am like a broken watch, a useless clock. I can't step over myself.

Even though I just want to hold your shaking shoulders tight close to me.

I just wanna stay with you
Don't cry alone.
I can dry up those tears like I can be your sunshine forever
If you have a wound that cannot be healed
We can change it to a bond, a link, while you only look at the future and at me
We can be together forever.

The clear sky and sun is like giving you a smile.
The closed window
I keep on knocking on your door

Miracles can't happen if you hesitate like that
I just wanna stay with you
I wanna tell you now.
I promise if I can be your one, you will remember your smile again
I love you from the bottom of my heart.
I will never leave you
I'll be there for you when you need me because I love you
I think I heard the lock being opened just now.

I just wanna stay with you
Don't cry alone.
I can dry up those tears like I can be your sunshine forever
If you have a wound that cannot be healed
We can change it to a bond, a link, while you only look at the future and at me
We can be together forever.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Believe


Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Bolero



The floating darkness of the month when you saw your dream to dance on stage
a deep, deep wound of the chest
Being alone has no end
nobody to bother you, you are good,
you excel at what you do

Tell me, sing for me, before leaving,
spread your wings and play the bolero

To soar, to glide,
find a place where your sadness will be healed

inside a dark room,
a window of sentiments is overflowing
Under the moonlight,
the dream of becoming stronger is a possibility,
as you engrave your rhythm's aspiration
Dream to become stronger,
you fly freely because you flap your wings
Nobody knows where to find the answers

Tell me, sing for me, before leaving,
spread your wings and play the bolero
To soar, find a place,
where your sadness will be healed

Oh~
Let you dance away
Don't you worry, don't you know
I'll stand by your side
Ah~
Fly away, Fly away, Fly away, Fly to the top
Fly forever
Yeah, yeah, yeah~

Eternally,
you continue to shine
Watching over attentively,
for your admired future
Where to go
as I continue to hope and carry dreams,
I will always to protect you

Sing for me,
in radiance,
in misery,
with passion and sparkle in bolero
You are not facing these alone
soar high until the end,
until your last breath of life.

This place is your home,
We have each other...

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Beautiful Life



What's wrong with me?
From the moment I met you, I'm not happy living on my own
Without you, I'll die... oh baby...
Don't wanna live by no one else's design
The joy I feel each and every day is because of you

I wish to be with you eternally
We don't need a reason for love
There's nothing in the world that compares to this happiness
I love my beautiful ordinary life...with you

Even though we don't do anything during the day
If we spend it together, that's fine
Even if the place isn't special, I like it because you're there
Don't wanna live my life any other way
As time goes on, we grow closer
The two of us and our life together endures

I wish to be with you eternally
We don't need a reason for love
There's nothing in the world that compares to this happiness
I love my beautiful ordinary life...with you

Your sleeping face, the face you make when angry
Your face, free of lies... I love all of your unique features
However your appearance, you're more beautiful than anyone else

I wish to be with you eternally
We don't need a reason for love
There's nothing in the world that compares to this happiness
I love my beautiful ordinary life...with you

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Maze



What is "freedom"? What is "correct"?
I have a strange dream, a wandering shadow...
It seems I can see it but I can't see anything at all; it's an illusion

Being left behind in the hectic everyday,
Depressed and in a distorted time-line
Rush ahead! Fly through the strong wind
To a place that's suffused in light and offers hope
Picking up the pieces of a dream I once had,
I'll keep running down the path I believe in

In order to live true to myself

Shouldering the burden of both sins and retribution,
My spirit has withered away
The pouring rain soaks me,
As though it would wash away this destiny of hatred

I'm just wandering alone in this intricate maze
Searching for the place I belong

Fly high! Embrace the blazing passion that flames know
Enough to tear the sky

Standing firmly on the rubble of lies,
In order to discover a yet unknown world
"Don't be afraid"
Crying out, from the bottom of my heart

To be "me"...

Rush ahead! Fly through the strong wind
To a place that's suffused in light and offers hope
Picking up the pieces of a dream I once had,
I'll keep running down the path I believe in

To live true to myself, I'll keep on running

Monday, February 02, 2009

Galaxy Eyes



I wonder why we make wishes on shooting stars
Even though they disappear far away into space
The wish you whispered beneath the night sky may be short-lived

Our heartbeats were added together in the wind
We tasted of peppermint and tears
You hold my hand as if you’re afraid you’ll disappear
Even though “forever” is not reality

If you were lost in this vast galaxy,
I would search anywhere and everywhere for the small light
And I would become a constellation to be beside you
I want to gaze for ever and ever into your galaxy-like eyes

I wonder why I love you like the Big Bang
The heartache spreads and my chest hurts
It is quite selfish, but you hide your eyes
I wonder if night is made for love

We ran and jumped through the breeze that had a “no entry” sign
We felt as if we had freedom in our hands
You smiled, wondering if it were okay
Follow me, let’s create a secret

That’s right, you and I met in the middle of the galaxy
We’ll believe, we’ll believe in the legend of the stars we once heard
I’m sure you’ll be the goddess in my world
I want to look after you, look after you and embrace your galaxy-like eyes

Uncountable sadness
And uncountable gladness, shining stars

If you were lost in this vast galaxy,
I would search anywhere and everywhere for the small light
And I would become a constellation to be beside you
I want to gaze for ever and ever into your galaxy-like eyes

Thursday, January 22, 2009

"O"-Thesis.Antithesis.Synthesis.



[ Thesis ]
So tell me, what do you think about the way things are?
There are no principles nor standards nor absolute truth.
You're struggling to understand what justice and truth is.
An ideal that does not exist in reality is just an image. "O"

[ Antithesis ]
"O..." I'm afraid, you feel. It's your opposition.
"O..." Utopia is forever elusive.

[ Synthesis ]
All we seek now is effort for the sake of harmony
Let us join hands and shout together.
People who thirst for this dream to be realized...
Gather courage in the form of righteousness!

You know! Check it, check yo!
Irrational disputes, flying at each other.
Here we go, right now! An open mind yo! Open mind!
That's how we'll find a resolution.
I gotta go, gotta go, gotta make my opposition righteousness, rightly justice, till it's right.
The effort of Thesis. Antithesis. Synthesis. will someday make the dream bloom on this earth.

[ Thesis ]
When everyone works towards even a small dream,
Things will change. We just have to pave the road.
I mustn't hinder the flow of progress with the weight of my opposition.
We can coexist at any time!

[ Antithesis ]
"O..." I don't know why, I'm still afraid. Am I doing this the right way?
"O..." We struggle towards our destination.

Always believing that a growing harmony
Will surely be acheived.
Someday, like a blooming flower,
wouldn't it brighten the earth?
Thesis!
Antithesis!
Synthesis!
Burdened by scars, it seems you face trials in the dark.
Even if you start to feel like retreating,
No matter what, don't stop! Don't stop!

[ Antithesis ]
"O..." Don't be afraid. Keep going on for life,
"O..." All the way, until there's nothing left.

[ Synthesis ]
All we seek now is effort for the sake of harmony
Let us join hands and shout together.
People who thirst for this dream to be realized...
Gather courage in the form of righteousness!

[ Thesis ]
In this society, people go about
Offering neither right nor left hand. We just have to pave the road,
Nothing can stop us. Silence the doubts--Ah!

Phrasing of the lyrics is arranged as follows:
[ Thesis ] This is the state of affairs. Something needs to be done about it to make things right again.
[ Antithesis ] It will be difficult, no doubt, and you will struggle against inner opposition/fear. Fight against it.
[ Synthesis ] But if we come together and work towards it, harmony can be achieved.

A RA SHI, A RA SHI, For Dream!

A RA SHI, A RA SHI, For Dream!