I Just Need to Know; By Me, Mara
"If heaven cries, do tears fall from the sky? Do stars seem to fade, dimming after they're made? Why did you leave? Where did you go? Will you ever return?
I need to know...
I just want to know...
Can non-beating hearts feel pain? Are all our worries vain? How could you place yourself within me, only to leave me?
I need to know...
I just want to know...
Will my sorrows return you? Will my feelings reach you?
I need to know...
I just want to know..."
~Mara

I Will Be Your Wings...

"Let me be your wings, let me be your only love, let me take you far beyond the stars..."
~Thumbelina, 'Let Me Be Your Wings"
^----Me likey that movie. I'm a sap for "warm 'n fuzzy" films. ^_^

Today ROCKED, Three words:
Crazy...Hat Day...XDD
I wore my blue cowboy hat, and all the kids in health sang "Home on the Range" when I walked in, so I busted a move on my air-banjo! D:
The seniors wore togas, but at lunch my senior buddy stole meh hat! So I chased her around the cafeteria yelling: "GRAND THEFT HAT!!!" XP
Perhaps that's the reason people were avoiding me in the halls after lunch...
One my camera decides to be nice, I'll post pictures, but right now I have to go to beddy-bye.. =~_~=
~Mara

Noodle?

I had four tests, and three quizzes today. This year is officially hard. >.<
Tommorow is class dress-up day, and us Freshman are supposed to wear crazy hats. I wanted to wear a toga like the seniors, but they aren't letting me. T_T I'll just make do with my witch hat. D:
Mom and Dad are being evil. I can't go to homecoming dance because of "the atmosphere." They "don't like my attitude, and if it continues, they'll put me back in perchial school." Apparently, I've 'developed an attitude' while attending a public school. What [CENSORED] kind of attitude do I have besides being sugar-high? XD Ah well, I'll just have to lay low for a while. Parents can be such aliens...
~Mara

For Me?

I found a rose with an anonymous note attatched to it in my locker today:
"I tried to find a rose as pretty as you, but no flower compares to your beauty. I could search the ends of the earth, and never find one as fair as you."
SQUEE!! So romantic! ^_^ I tried to find out who sent it, but nobody seems to know. T_T I shall find them and make them mine! >o<
Besides that, life goes on: King Charles II, Metic conversions, Compound sentences, "me gusto/no me gusto," Lifestyle diseases, and graphing are just fragments of the information that the teachers are trying to cram into my tiny brain... >-<
Ah well, better go study for that bio test...
~Mara

Another Day in the Life...

Jewish fasting day, missed the bus, lost my phone, got hit by another backpack, I hate Mondays... T_T
We had a quiz in health class today, and I took the oppertunity to have a nice little nap. ~_~ Well, of course, the teacher caught me, and asked why I was sleeping. I simply said that I wasn't eating today, so I was a bit sleepy. The teacher gave me this lecture on anorexia in front of the entire class, and then sent me to see the school counseler/thearapist person. >.<
God, it's hard to be religious.
I also got twice the work to make up for the fact that it's homecoming, and they want us to "keep on top of things." I don't even think I'm going to the dance, because my parents "don't like the atmosphere." I'm definetely not going to be at the football game, because:
a) I hate football
b) 'Tis the Sabbath
I baked cookies, but they turned out all burned.. :'( Nobody wanted to eat them, so I ended up eating them all by myself... Maybe I can mail them to Kaz-Senpai, and call them Brownie-Thrax!
~Mara

Add the Sugar, Mix in the Eggs...

As you can see, I've been baking. This is the first time in, like, ever that anything I've baked/cooked has not:
A) Blown up
B) Blown up
c) Exploded
Above are the white-fudge, cranberry brownies I baked yesterday. I have a pumpkin spice cake in the oven as we speak.
Yumminess.
I got the math test back: 45/57 correct=C+. T_T The teacher is letting me get five points back if I do all this crappy extra work, but if it gives me a B, I'll lick the floor.
Anyhoo, because it is Rosh Hashanah this weekend, I'll be too busy repenting for my various sins to post. Life goes onwards...
"The doubt of future foes exiles my present joy,
And wit me warns to shun such snares as threaten mine annoy;
For falsehood now doth flow, and subjects' faith doth ebb,
Which should not be if reason ruled or wisdom weaved the web.
But clouds of joys untried do cloak aspiring minds,
Which turn to rain of late repent by changed course of winds.
The top of hope supposed the root upreared shall be,
And fruitless all their grafted guile, as shortly ye shall see.
The dazzled eyes with pride, which great ambition blinds,
Shall be unsealed by worthy wights whose foresight falsehood finds.
The daughter of debate that discord aye doth sow
Shall reap no gain where former rule still peace hath taught to know.
No foreign banished wight shall anchor in this port;
Our realm brooks not seditious sects, let them elsewhere resort.
My rusty sword through rest shall first his edge employ
To poll their tops that seek such change or gape for future joy."
-Queen Elizabeth I

~Mara

The Days Are Packed. Sure...

Today we got let out at 11:20. Huzzah..
Today I found out what's wrong with me; I have some form of anemia, and it's been affecting me for a few years to be accurate. O.o And I thought it was stress...
I'm now on supplemental vitamins that five times the size of any normal pills, and the docs are keeping an eye on me. I just hope that it doesn't mean shots. <.< Hate 'em...
Besides that, life seems to drag itself onward. School, home, homework, family, friends, vitamins, school, home, homework, you get the idea.
The crazyrabidMaraclan is what I'm calling my small band of followers in school. Our members are now as follows:
Captain Omnipotent
Lt. Miu
Srg. Dook
Private Kino
Names are subject to change, and I plan on changing them soon, but until then, arrrrg!
~Mara

Dream On...

I just figured out how to put pictures in my posts... And I call myself a techie... I'm a disgrace to computer freaks everywhere. My status as a n00b is back... T_T
I took my the year's first math test today, and I'm pretty confident that I scored a "B" or higher. (Then again, the last time I correctly predicted a good math grade was when I was about seven. <.<) I at least HOPE I did well, for my sake...
Dad says that going to the homecoming dance is out of the question for a good kid like me. "Too much inapropriate activity.." ._.
I picked up on Naruto over the weekend, and now I'm hooked! :-D Naruto is obnoxious, clumsy, and courageous all at once, and he is someone that a lot of people can relate to. (Then again, how many people can say that they have a demon fox sealed within them?)
My friends are saying that I need to take better care of myself. When I asked why, they were like, "You're not eating very much, you look pale a lot of the time, and you're not smiling as much anymore. Are you okay?" I never noticed, but I've taken on a much paler complexion, and I'm not as hungry at lunch anymore as I was during Middle School. As for smiling, I've just been overworked and overstressed lately. Whatever I put into my work is what I get back in grade form, and I haven't been able to get that off my mind lately. Especially now that the 'warm and fuzzy' department is wearing off of all the teachers' lessons.
I just hope to survive...

YOSH!~ IKUZO!~

In case you didn't know, the title is Japanese for "right, let's go!"
Today I kicked butt on that math quiz! ^_^ Go me! To celebrate, I read an issue of Shojo Beat in the school library during study hall...when I was supposed to be studying for my biology test tommorow. ._. But that's besides the point... I gotta go study for that test...
~Mara

Walking Along, Singing a Song...

The weather was so nice, I was like, "Screw the bus, I'm walking!" It took me a good twenty minutes, but I got home in one piece. I got so bored on the way back, I listened to a CD that my nine year-old brother had burned. It only had one song: スーパーカリフラジリスティックエクスピアリドーシャス(Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious in Japanese.) Talk about a headache. T_T
I have to study for that damned math quiz... God save my soul...
~Mara

Como se dice..?

Yes. My mad Spanish skeels have progressed. Now I let my Senora know that I have no idea what's going on...In Spanish! Suteki da ne? ^_^ No? T_T Well, who asked you anyway?
This is the first time in, like, years that I actually look forward to attending school! Go ahead, label me as a nerd, but I actually like my school a lot! I've become the very thing I hate; people who love their schools. Good god....GO HIGHLANDERS!
~Mara

Me llamo Mara...

I'm taking Spanish. Go ahead, say it, I'M A COMPLETE LOSER! I'm aware of that.. :-p I figured that my other classes were hard enough, and my parents expected me to a take a foreign language in high school. C'est la vie, man. Although I must say, it is a fun class considering the fact that we don't do very much... And if I progress to Spanish IV or higher by senior year, I get to go on the school trip to Spain.
Coolness.

High School...

Yes, I've made it to this point. dun dun duuun! I've made it to my classes okay so far, and I haven't been trampled quite yet. These are the easiest days, but it's just gonna go downhill from there. The teachers all seem pretty nice, though I have suspicions that one is on sugar-pills.
I'm really pumped, and I think I can do better than ever before this year!
Damn. Gotta finish that Social Studies assignment...
~Mara